I feel old.

My legs hurt if i stand for a long time, long being less then 5 minutes. And then they hurt for a long time after...

My feet hurt most of the time.

My head hurts almost always when im awake. More so when im at work...

I get heart burn sometimes, not a lot...

And lately, and this is the most concerning...

Im having trouble breathing... Like, i can't take deep breathes, AND i can't yawn properly. I can only half yawn, and i feel like an idiot cause i still continue to yawn...

I hate to think what it will be like when i am really old and all the old person ailments start happening...

I feel old.

Im only 24.

Paul

A man from my work passed away the other day.

I had never met him but I can sense the loss.

He worked in our overseas office and I had spoken to him many times.

I look at facebook and I can see the hurt in the others (from that office) faces and know that a great person is gone.

I feel like I shouldn't be feeling such a sense of loss but I am.

I feel like something in our office should be done for him and his
family but I doubt hardly anyone knows.

People seem shocked and then non concerned when i tell them.

I'm stuck in the middle.

Adding to the hoopla.

At the moment, there is a big hoopla about Kyle Sandilands and his radio show

Kyle and Jackie O show.

Now, i hate that I'm writing this, cause personally, i can't stand either him, nor her (Jackie O), but i have an opinion and the way the media is bringing this story is killing me!!

Now, a short run down on the dets...

Kyle and Jackie have a BREAKFAST radio show. They were also the hosts of Big Brother for one season before it got canned. Kyle 'was' also a judge on Australian Idol. (Jackie O did some other stuff too, but she is of little importance').

**Note, neither of them are counsellors or claim to be.**

So, breakfast radio here consists of each station trying to out do each other in terms of WOW factor, and scandlousness.(Yep, that's totally a word).

Honestly, i haven't really listened to breakfast radio since i was at school (7 years, gosh I'm old), so i only hear the excerpts of which they play through out the day.

But i have heard nothing except this for the last few days and now I am adding to this. Sigh.

So the segment was a lie detector test segment. Pretty basic right?

The subject (is that the right word?) of the lie detector test was a 14 year old girl.

The giver of the questions was her mother. ~~~Remember this part!

Kyle and Jackie O were there to comment, i guess.

Now, i didn't hear the segment at the time, just excerpts of it for the first day or so, but i have listened to the whole thing now.

I don't know, if Kyle or Jackie O knew what questions the child's mother were

going to ask or not.

This is what happened:

http://www.news.com.au/story/0,,25871515-1242,00.html

Now, lets make it clear.

Her MOTHER asked her the question.

Her MOTHER was smiling and thought it was funny.

Her MOTHER knew she was raped. Both Kyle, Jackie O and the producers are saying that they did not know about the rape.

Yes, i think it is pretty silly to be asking a 14 year old about her sexual experience, cause in my opinion, 14 year old should not be having sex, however, that's not the point here. At least not the point in my opinion.

Yes, again, i think that Kyle may have said the wrong thing right after the comment, however, as i said earlier, neither of them (himself or Jackie) are counsellors or claim to be.

They are radio announcers and did what they needed to, to make sure there was not silence.

http://www.news.com.au/entertainment/story/0,,25855449-5013560,00.html

While i think maybe that last line is a bit hmmmm, i have to agree with him.

The child's mother has barely been mentioned in this fiasco.

Nor has Jackie O.

The media has jumped on this story and jumped on Kyle because he has this 'bad boy image'.

And no matter what the issue they have with him, that should not have happened.

Meanwhile...

Kyle has been dropped as a judge of Australian Idol for the controversy this issue has caused, not for the comment he made.

The Kyle and Jackie O show has been put on 'recess' for a week, (so far, although this article says differently...)

The following companies have dropped there sponsorship of 2day FM:

Amercian Express

Optus

Channel 10

Qantas

I don't doubt these will be the only ones that will drop their sponsorship, because of the backlash that is currently happening. And that makes me really sad.

If you want to listen to the audio, check out this article, they have a link to the audio.

Now, i feel sick thinking about this poor child and not only what she had gone through on the radio, but what had happened to her, and that she hadn't gotten ANY COUNSELLING OR ANY HELP AT ALL until this point.

The producers of the show have organised counselling for this poor child.

DOCS have also become involved.

This whole thing and the media circus that it has been created into, just makes me sad.

**UPDATE**

Here is a transcription of the incident.

The on-air exchange that started it all

JACKIE O: What's your worst fear, is it the sex, is it the lying, the possibility of doing drugs, smoking?
MOTHER: Drugs and sex and older boys
JACKIE O: Has she (the 14-year-old daughter) told you she's had sex before or do you think she's a virgin?
MOTHER: I think she might have had sex before.
JACKIE O: Right. But she hasn't said anything?
MOTHER: No.
JACKIE O: (Laughs) Alright we have her (the daughter) hooked up to the lie detector!
KYLE: Ohhhh!
JACKIE O: She's not happy! I just saw her listening to that replay!
KYLE: How are you (name)?
DAUGHTER: I'm scared!
MOTHER: Have you had sex?
DAUGHTER: I've already told you about this and don't look at me and smile because it's not funny! (Pause) Oh, OK! I got raped when I was 12-years-old!
(Silence) KYLE: Right. And is that the only experience you've had?
MOTHER: I only found out about that a couple of months ago. Yes, I knew about that.
DAUGHTER: And yet you still asked me the question.
MOTHER: The question was, have you had sex, other than that?The on-air exchange that started it all
JACKIE O: What's your worst fear, is it the sex, is it the lying, the possibility of doing drugs, smoking?
MOTHER: Drugs and sex and older boys
JACKIE O: Has she (the 14-year-old daughter) told you she's had sex before or do you think she's a virgin?
MOTHER: I think she might have had sex before.
JACKIE O: Right. But she hasn't said anything?
MOTHER: No.
JACKIE O: (Laughs) Alright we have her (the daughter) hooked up to the lie detector!
KYLE: Ohhhh!
JACKIE O: She's not happy! I just saw her listening to that replay!
KYLE: How are you (name)?
DAUGHTER: I'm scared!
MOTHER: Have you had sex?
DAUGHTER: I've already told you about this and don't look at me and smile because it's not funny! (Pause) Oh, OK! I got raped when I was 12-years-old!
(Silence) KYLE: Right. And is that the only experience you've had?
MOTHER: I only found out about that a couple of months ago. Yes, I knew about that.
DAUGHTER: And yet you still asked me the question.
MOTHER: The question was, have you had sex, other than that?

If you are a victim of, or want to report a rape, you can call 1800 424 017 or get some online help here.

If you want to report anything relating to child abuse or neglect, you can call 132 111 (TTY 1800 212 936), or go here.

If i missed anything or am misinformed about anything that i have written, please feel free to correct me.

Family time is fun time...

I went to visit my family this past weekend.

I love doing this. But i hate doing it at the same time.

I live in the city and they live basically, what could be classed as (and what my husband calls) the country. Its not really the country, but its far enough away and so completely different that it just is.

I love seeing them, and i don't see them enough, so its great when we do go up there, but i hate it cause it means that i pretty much have no weekend.

I finish work at 7pm every day, so if we leave right after work, we don't get to their house until at least 9pm. At the very earliest. No kidding. Now, we wouldn't normally, go up there right after work, because that means that we would have to take our weekend junk to work, and that's just a hassle.

But, if we go up on Saturday, it means a longer trip, AND we need to get up early, and that means no weekend sleep in. Boo.

And then when we come home, on Sunday, it means, to not actually just waste the day on the train, ( did i mention, that we don't drive? OK, we don't drive, we have a parking spot, but no car), we have to leave pretty late, so we get home late, and no weekend. : (

So seeing family = no weekend, which works out pretty good, except it means that we have to do all the weekend stuff after work during the week, which means, they usually don't get done.... Like the washing and the cleaning, and the shopping...

My little brother and sister also are kinda sporty people, (totally the opposite of me), so when we go there for the weekend, we either go watch them play sport, or they sometimes, don't go to their sport, (which is kinda bad, cause they need to pay for it at the beginning of the year, so its kinda wasted money...), but its more the sister then the brother that stops the sport, nothing stops my little brother from his football, and golf... No matter if he is invited to go see Transformers or not!!

So yesterday, my 'little' brother had his football, and this morning my sister went to soccer. We went to his football game and below are some photos of said watching of the game:

This is obviously how interested i was in the game...

(its the pretty clouds, and i have at least 5 photos all similar to this)

Myself, my little sister and her friend - not one of us looking the direction of where the game was being played.

This is the leagues club that sponsored the teams, i guess...

Anyway, there were these cute little girls playing over in that direction.

Obviously, its a little hard to see, but i only had my phone to take pictures.

Shoot me.

First photo of where the game is!!

However, i think you can only see one or two players...

But that guy fully in the picture is my dear Dad. He's the manager, which basically means, you get a chair to sit on and get to sit next to the players on the field. I'm sure there is other junk to do, (he was quite stressed before leaving for the game and had to get there like 3 hours before the game started), but, I'm really jealous of the chair.

So that was the football, i don't have any photos of the soccer, cause i would have had to get up at like 6am on a Sunday, and i don't even get up that early on a weekday for work. Sorry, sister dear, i love you and all, but i love my sleep more. Also, we took you to the movies, (when i could have gotten a lift (in a car) home, instead of the train) so i don't have that much to feel guilty about. Plus, we went to your game last time, and not his, so fair fair.

It makes me sad that i barely go up there, the last time we went up was to drop my little sister off, after her and her friend stayed with us for a week... Before that i think it was Christmas. I really hate that i can't go up there more often. I think it has to do with the no car thing, and the travel thing, and then no weekend thing, and the we like sleep thing. I hate that i basically only see them, for birthdays. (it was my little sisters 14th birthday on Friday, hence the need to go up there).

Oh, and PS. He totally won. The final score was 46-6 i think. I know it was 40-something to 6 anyway.

I've been awondering...

I was thinking about this just a little while ago, and it got me awondering...

So I live in kinda a hooker filled area. Not only hooker filled, but where all the 'cool kids' come to hang out on a Saturday night. Now if you were to ask me to point any hookers out, barr a few, I probably couldn't. At least not on a Saturday night.

However, what I probably would point out the "slutty" girls. I don't know if anyone else is noticing this, or what, but I am getting a little scared for my little sister, as she gets older and the dressing gets more and more lax...

Now, when i was young, (cause i totally grew up in the 50's), it was a little inappropriate to dress in as little as possible, while still being covered. (Here i tried to find a picture, however, this is something i would not recommend).

But now a days, its just accepted. Completely and utterly accepted. I just don't get it.

I don't get it at all.

Why is it so accepted?

Why do we think its OK for our young girls to dress like Paris Hilton and the like? I have nothing against Paris as a person, (i don't know her, so i can only judge from afar), but the way she acts and dresses makes me sad for the future.

Who said one day, that this was OK, and can this person now say, no, its not OK anymore, stop and reverse to when people were nice and proper.

I just do not like it at all.

I hope that when i have kids, i won't need to keep them in a bubble, and have them feel different, because they are polite, and 'nice'. I hope that the time cycle, (you know the one, where old becomes new again, with clothes and the like), cycles to back to then.

Ps. I really like where i live, even though it may not sound like it, in this post, or another one on homelessness...