Not because it was secret or anything like that, but because my stupid computer broke two days before i went on it, and my work doesn't like me to not work at work, so i can't blog there.
So EVENTUALLY a great blog post about my super fun awesome holiday will be written, (that is kinda half written on my phone) and you will all enjoy it.
Meanwhile, this is the first chance that i have gotten to even READ blogs since before August started and i think im a little scared.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
101 in 1001
In 1001 days it will be...
Tuesday April 5, 2013
**I may be a little off, it took me a few days to think of 101 things**
Which is
Approx 2.74 years
OR 143 weeks
OR Approx 33 months
OR Approx 24,000 hours
OR Approx 1,441,440 Min's
OR Approx 86,486,400 Seconds
Away.
And hopefully i will have done, if not all, but most of these things.
1. Travel overseas
2. Buy a new pair of boots
3. Donate my time
4. Go to a christening
5. See some of my old friends
6. See the snow - and possibly ski
7. Go sky diving
8. Go on a picnic
9. Taste some different food
10. Have a CLEAN house
11. Be happy
12. Comment on at least 10 blogs
13. Go out to Dinner
14. Laugh
15. Cry
16. Give all my spare change to the bank and hope there is more then $100 in there
17. Try something new
18. Go to a museum
19. Go the Zoo
20. Hang out with some children
21. Make THEM laugh
22. Play Hide and Seek
23. Go on a Scavenger hunt
24. Unpack my house completely (This is a hard one, TRUST ME)
25. Go out for drinks
26. Learn something new
27. Watch the news for the WHOLE hour
28. Appreciate
29. Cook the boy tea
30. Go a whole day without my phone on me
31. Swing on a swing
32. Go to a game - whether its my brother football or sisters soccer or a professional game, any game
33. Pay off at least 2 of my credit cards (yeah, i have more then 2, don't be judging)
34. Go out to a meal with friends.
35. Have dinner at my house - WHICH IS COOKED HERE
37. Watch the sunrise
38. Watch the sunset
39. Buy some new clothes just to donate them
40. Get a pet (hopefully)
40a. If i can't get a pet, adopt a pet
41. Go for a bike ride
42. Give up chocolate for a week
43. Be thankful
44. Grow old (I was 25 on the 5th, so I'm getting there. GAH!)
45. See more of my beautiful country.
46. Go to the movies
47. Talk to people more then SMS
48. Win money - whether it be a little or A LOT, on a lotto ticket or on roulette, i wanna win some somehow.
49. Allow myself to make mistakes
50. Get a new computer
51. Read 33 books
52. Go to the beach
53. Go bowling - Lawn bowling and ten pin bowling
54. Go see the Three Sisters
55. Cook Churros
56. Stay in a hotel
57. Make a sand castle
58. Learn how to knit or cross stitch
59. Eat a macroon
60. Go to a filming of something
61. Go to a fancy restaurant
62. Sing karaoke
63. Ride a horse
64. Take more photos
65. Hold a new newborn
66. Hang upside down on monkey bars
67. Get a new phone
68. Have an impromptu photo shoot day
69. Teach someone something they didn't know *NOT related to my job*
70. Not wash my hair for 2 weeks
71. Get lost in a maze
72. Go watch a court case
73. Go to the ANZAC march
74. Get another tattoo
75. Select a random place on the train ticket machine and see what it has to offer
76. Donate blood
77. Get drunk
78. Visit Gallipoli - if i don't do this within 1001 days i would love to go there for 2015
79. Go a MONTH without fast food
80. Listen to music everyday for at least a month
81. See a musical
82. Go a weekend without using the Internet
83. Wear short shorts out in public
84. Go camping - even if its a tent in the lounge room :)
85. Go a week without chocolate.
86. Dress up like Wonder Woman - just once
87. Listen
88. Climb a tree
89. Build a fort
90. Go fishing
91. Take a day off work and give adventuring
92. Climb a mountain - whether a mountain mountain, or a mountain of leaves/dirt/snow
93. Spend a weekend watching 80's movies
94. Dress real nice then go out to eat at a fast food place - ala The Simpsons
95. Play a round of golf - possibly with my dad and brother
96. Go a day without Twitter
97. Go a weekend without Facebook
98. Spend a weekend watching Disney movies
99. Go ice skating
100. .....
101. .....
So i couldn't think of 101 things, just 99. But if you want to suggest something, I'll be willing to think about them.
PS. Some of these i KNOW i already am doing, but its not cheating at all. ;p
Tuesday April 5, 2013
**I may be a little off, it took me a few days to think of 101 things**
Which is
Approx 2.74 years
OR 143 weeks
OR Approx 33 months
OR Approx 24,000 hours
OR Approx 1,441,440 Min's
OR Approx 86,486,400 Seconds
Away.
And hopefully i will have done, if not all, but most of these things.
1. Travel overseas
2. Buy a new pair of boots
3. Donate my time
4. Go to a christening
5. See some of my old friends
6. See the snow - and possibly ski
7. Go sky diving
8. Go on a picnic
9. Taste some different food
10. Have a CLEAN house
11. Be happy
12. Comment on at least 10 blogs
13. Go out to Dinner
14. Laugh
15. Cry
16. Give all my spare change to the bank and hope there is more then $100 in there
17. Try something new
18. Go to a museum
19. Go the Zoo
20. Hang out with some children
21. Make THEM laugh
22. Play Hide and Seek
23. Go on a Scavenger hunt
24. Unpack my house completely (This is a hard one, TRUST ME)
25. Go out for drinks
26. Learn something new
27. Watch the news for the WHOLE hour
28. Appreciate
29. Cook the boy tea
30. Go a whole day without my phone on me
31. Swing on a swing
32. Go to a game - whether its my brother football or sisters soccer or a professional game, any game
33. Pay off at least 2 of my credit cards (yeah, i have more then 2, don't be judging)
34. Go out to a meal with friends.
35. Have dinner at my house - WHICH IS COOKED HERE
37. Watch the sunrise
38. Watch the sunset
39. Buy some new clothes just to donate them
40. Get a pet (hopefully)
40a. If i can't get a pet, adopt a pet
41. Go for a bike ride
42. Give up chocolate for a week
43. Be thankful
44. Grow old (I was 25 on the 5th, so I'm getting there. GAH!)
45. See more of my beautiful country.
46. Go to the movies
47. Talk to people more then SMS
48. Win money - whether it be a little or A LOT, on a lotto ticket or on roulette, i wanna win some somehow.
49. Allow myself to make mistakes
50. Get a new computer
51. Read 33 books
52. Go to the beach
53. Go bowling - Lawn bowling and ten pin bowling
54. Go see the Three Sisters
55. Cook Churros
56. Stay in a hotel
57. Make a sand castle
58. Learn how to knit or cross stitch
59. Eat a macroon
60. Go to a filming of something
61. Go to a fancy restaurant
62. Sing karaoke
63. Ride a horse
64. Take more photos
65. Hold a new newborn
66. Hang upside down on monkey bars
67. Get a new phone
68. Have an impromptu photo shoot day
69. Teach someone something they didn't know *NOT related to my job*
70. Not wash my hair for 2 weeks
71. Get lost in a maze
72. Go watch a court case
73. Go to the ANZAC march
74. Get another tattoo
75. Select a random place on the train ticket machine and see what it has to offer
76. Donate blood
77. Get drunk
78. Visit Gallipoli - if i don't do this within 1001 days i would love to go there for 2015
79. Go a MONTH without fast food
80. Listen to music everyday for at least a month
81. See a musical
82. Go a weekend without using the Internet
83. Wear short shorts out in public
84. Go camping - even if its a tent in the lounge room :)
85. Go a week without chocolate.
86. Dress up like Wonder Woman - just once
87. Listen
88. Climb a tree
89. Build a fort
90. Go fishing
91. Take a day off work and give adventuring
92. Climb a mountain - whether a mountain mountain, or a mountain of leaves/dirt/snow
93. Spend a weekend watching 80's movies
94. Dress real nice then go out to eat at a fast food place - ala The Simpsons
95. Play a round of golf - possibly with my dad and brother
96. Go a day without Twitter
97. Go a weekend without Facebook
98. Spend a weekend watching Disney movies
99. Go ice skating
100. .....
101. .....
So i couldn't think of 101 things, just 99. But if you want to suggest something, I'll be willing to think about them.
PS. Some of these i KNOW i already am doing, but its not cheating at all. ;p
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Sometimes...
...i wish you would take my side for once
...i wish it was you who compromised and not me
...i think the people who doubted us were right
...i think what would have happened if we didn't
...i wish you would understand
...it should be easier
...it should be about me and not always about you
...i fear for the future
...i wish you would admit when you are wrong
...i look around and i don't recognize anything
...i look around and don't see ME
...i think about what i have missed
...i wish you would listen
...i try and think about what i want - and i can't think of a single thing, not because i don't want things, but because i know i probably wont get them so why bother
...i need you to see ME but you don't or won't
...i regret everything
...i want this to end
...i wish it was you who compromised and not me
...i think the people who doubted us were right
...i think what would have happened if we didn't
...i wish you would understand
...it should be easier
...it should be about me and not always about you
...i fear for the future
...i wish you would admit when you are wrong
...i look around and i don't recognize anything
...i look around and don't see ME
...i think about what i have missed
...i wish you would listen
...i try and think about what i want - and i can't think of a single thing, not because i don't want things, but because i know i probably wont get them so why bother
...i need you to see ME but you don't or won't
...i regret everything
...i want this to end
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
So i haven't died or anything.
I'm in the midst of writing a post.
It just is hard when i like sleep and catching up on awesome shows like this. And if you are serious about entertainment, this.
(you know its good when its made in NZ and I'm suggesting it.)
So when i finally finish that post, (which has me admitting something that i wouldn't normally) I'll put it up. AND it will even have pictures!!
Get excited.
I'm in the midst of writing a post.
It just is hard when i like sleep and catching up on awesome shows like this. And if you are serious about entertainment, this.
(you know its good when its made in NZ and I'm suggesting it.)
So when i finally finish that post, (which has me admitting something that i wouldn't normally) I'll put it up. AND it will even have pictures!!
Get excited.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Little (or not so little) letters
Dear person whom I'm no longer in touch with because of someone else choice.
I miss you.
I miss your kids.
I'm sad that I've missed them growing cause someone else's choice. The choice wasn't bad, but the consequences of that choice in relation to you and your wonderful little family to me, kinda sucks.
We gotta catch up.
Ps. Sometimes I 'stalk' you on facebook and am so proud of you and everything that you have done since then.
Dear house, (mine not the doctor)
I really like you, but one thing. 7am (or earlier) is not a good time to be waking me up. I know, I know, you have no control over the sun, but when it comes blazing in (even with blinds closed) that falls to you house. Also, when I'm walking around in my underwear and have forgotten to close the blinds, can you do something so the neighbours don't see? Thanks house.
Dear dryer (and washer to some extent),
So I know I lose a lot of hair. I know it's cause I don't brush it. **NOTE: I DO wash it, it's totally clean, so stop thinking I'm gross** but really d&w, it makes me dry retch when I go to put clothes on straight from you both when they are at their best and I find hair.
Not just a strand but a whole chunker. Seriously, I already have to clean the lint thingy, can't you catch it all in there?
Dear people who live on my level,
I know it's hard to read the 5 or so signs in the garbage room, and even harder to actually follow them, but it's gross when you don't put your rubbish in the garbage shoot.
It's even worse when you put it in the recycling or even JUST ON THE FLOOR. Really, I know that the shoot is turned off sometimes, but that just means you have to take your TIED bag back home and wait like 30 mins. So please stop it. The husband gets cross every time he takes the rubbish out and I think soon it will fall to me and I don't want it.
Dear people who ride scooters who are no longer at school,
Really?
Dear people who cross when the man says don't walk,
All it takes is two minutes, either two minutes waiting and your fine or two minutes and BAM something hits you. I know what's it's like and it isn't as fun as it seems. Trust me, all you will end up with is a scar on your head and never being able to do your hair right cos of it.
Dear new person in my team,
You are new. Probably not the best to come in all arrogant and acting like you can work harder and do more then the people already in the team when you have no experience whatsoever in what we do. Also, even though you cant do much right now, going on endless breaks? Not a good idea. Just a heads up, you are new and your attitude, it's putting people offside. Not the best way to start.
Dear customers who fax stuff to my company,
I appreciate you. I really value you as customers but, please just give me one day where we are up to date with the hundreds of faxes that we receive. I was totally being sincere with the first part of appreciating and valuing you, honest.
Dear my dear friend Balamino,
Congratulations for Sunday (or Monday here). I know you picked right and even though I haven't met him, I know your life will be filled with joy and his life will be better for having you in it. I still want you to come over and visit soon though.
Dear 'promoter' who I used to work with,
STOP INVITING ME TO YOUR STUPID EVENTS!! I will NEVER go to one. Ever.
Just stop it.
Dear mislabelled size 6 jeans,
I assume you were mislabelled, cause my behind is not that small, but thank you. Every time i wear you, you make me feel good cause I'm in a size 6!!
Ps. That's like a size 2 in US people.
I miss you.
I miss your kids.
I'm sad that I've missed them growing cause someone else's choice. The choice wasn't bad, but the consequences of that choice in relation to you and your wonderful little family to me, kinda sucks.
We gotta catch up.
Ps. Sometimes I 'stalk' you on facebook and am so proud of you and everything that you have done since then.
Dear house, (mine not the doctor)
I really like you, but one thing. 7am (or earlier) is not a good time to be waking me up. I know, I know, you have no control over the sun, but when it comes blazing in (even with blinds closed) that falls to you house. Also, when I'm walking around in my underwear and have forgotten to close the blinds, can you do something so the neighbours don't see? Thanks house.
Dear dryer (and washer to some extent),
So I know I lose a lot of hair. I know it's cause I don't brush it. **NOTE: I DO wash it, it's totally clean, so stop thinking I'm gross** but really d&w, it makes me dry retch when I go to put clothes on straight from you both when they are at their best and I find hair.
Not just a strand but a whole chunker. Seriously, I already have to clean the lint thingy, can't you catch it all in there?
Dear people who live on my level,
I know it's hard to read the 5 or so signs in the garbage room, and even harder to actually follow them, but it's gross when you don't put your rubbish in the garbage shoot.
It's even worse when you put it in the recycling or even JUST ON THE FLOOR. Really, I know that the shoot is turned off sometimes, but that just means you have to take your TIED bag back home and wait like 30 mins. So please stop it. The husband gets cross every time he takes the rubbish out and I think soon it will fall to me and I don't want it.
Dear people who ride scooters who are no longer at school,
Really?
Dear people who cross when the man says don't walk,
All it takes is two minutes, either two minutes waiting and your fine or two minutes and BAM something hits you. I know what's it's like and it isn't as fun as it seems. Trust me, all you will end up with is a scar on your head and never being able to do your hair right cos of it.
Dear new person in my team,
You are new. Probably not the best to come in all arrogant and acting like you can work harder and do more then the people already in the team when you have no experience whatsoever in what we do. Also, even though you cant do much right now, going on endless breaks? Not a good idea. Just a heads up, you are new and your attitude, it's putting people offside. Not the best way to start.
Dear customers who fax stuff to my company,
I appreciate you. I really value you as customers but, please just give me one day where we are up to date with the hundreds of faxes that we receive. I was totally being sincere with the first part of appreciating and valuing you, honest.
Dear my dear friend Balamino,
Congratulations for Sunday (or Monday here). I know you picked right and even though I haven't met him, I know your life will be filled with joy and his life will be better for having you in it. I still want you to come over and visit soon though.
Dear 'promoter' who I used to work with,
STOP INVITING ME TO YOUR STUPID EVENTS!! I will NEVER go to one. Ever.
Just stop it.
Dear mislabelled size 6 jeans,
I assume you were mislabelled, cause my behind is not that small, but thank you. Every time i wear you, you make me feel good cause I'm in a size 6!!
Ps. That's like a size 2 in US people.
Monday, May 10, 2010
I don't have a title for this, so sue me.
So I have a New boss now. Work moved. Same (old) job. Different location. It's strange cause my old boss has been hanging around helping with the move and changes and habit tends to follow us both.
He'll hear me say something and want to fix it or I'll see him and go to tell him about my issues. But it's different.
I don't think my new boss 'gets' me yet. It might take awhile. I'm too used to everyone knowing what I'm like. Almost 6 years (5 in this role) at the same place with mostly the same people does that.
I guess it didn't help that I told him he reminded me of Sully the first time we chatted either. But without the fur.
I couldn't help it though. Nerves = talking. Talking = honesty. That should be good right?
{I would put his photo up but that would be wrong... and also he shaved since i told him that and he kinda looks different now so won't. Also cause it would be wrong.}
Anyway.
New job location means new travel. I used to walk to the station and then catch a train to work and then walk some more. All good for my non exercising self.
Now, I walk to a different station that's further away and get a bus right to the door of my work. Cheaper. But even though it's further that I have to walk, I get hungry. And even though it's all kinds of terrible I walk past a few McDonald's and kinda maybe have stopped there most days to get breakfast.
I also have now taken the habit of walking through the QVB on my way to, but not back. On the way back I just wanna get home. But on the way to work, I like to take my time. I get to work an hour early anyway, so I like to slow it down a little. Which means my 10(ish) min journey gets extended to sometimes 30, and you know what?I don't mind at all. The qvb is beautiful. My mum used to force us to go there when we were young and in the city. They have this clock that told a story and we HAD to watch the whole thing not cause it was interesting to us then, i mean, we were young and easily bored.... wait, i still am, but anyway. I appreciate it now. Not necessarily the clock, cause i don't think it goes off anymore, or at least not when I'm there, but it just is an awesome pretty way to start the day.
Thats all i have for now.
Wait, does anyone else have trouble spelling the word necessarily or necessary or any variations of that? I totally do and i spell it so badly that spell check is all like, ummmm, so not a word and then i have to google and i feel even more silly. And then i share it with all of you. Yep.
He'll hear me say something and want to fix it or I'll see him and go to tell him about my issues. But it's different.
I don't think my new boss 'gets' me yet. It might take awhile. I'm too used to everyone knowing what I'm like. Almost 6 years (5 in this role) at the same place with mostly the same people does that.
I guess it didn't help that I told him he reminded me of Sully the first time we chatted either. But without the fur.
I couldn't help it though. Nerves = talking. Talking = honesty. That should be good right?
{I would put his photo up but that would be wrong... and also he shaved since i told him that and he kinda looks different now so won't. Also cause it would be wrong.}
Anyway.
New job location means new travel. I used to walk to the station and then catch a train to work and then walk some more. All good for my non exercising self.
Now, I walk to a different station that's further away and get a bus right to the door of my work. Cheaper. But even though it's further that I have to walk, I get hungry. And even though it's all kinds of terrible I walk past a few McDonald's and kinda maybe have stopped there most days to get breakfast.
I also have now taken the habit of walking through the QVB on my way to, but not back. On the way back I just wanna get home. But on the way to work, I like to take my time. I get to work an hour early anyway, so I like to slow it down a little. Which means my 10(ish) min journey gets extended to sometimes 30, and you know what?I don't mind at all. The qvb is beautiful. My mum used to force us to go there when we were young and in the city. They have this clock that told a story and we HAD to watch the whole thing not cause it was interesting to us then, i mean, we were young and easily bored.... wait, i still am, but anyway. I appreciate it now. Not necessarily the clock, cause i don't think it goes off anymore, or at least not when I'm there, but it just is an awesome pretty way to start the day.
Thats all i have for now.
Wait, does anyone else have trouble spelling the word necessarily or necessary or any variations of that? I totally do and i spell it so badly that spell check is all like, ummmm, so not a word and then i have to google and i feel even more silly. And then i share it with all of you. Yep.
Monday, May 3, 2010
25. Plus some.
So.
Facebook.
Great for stalking.
Annoying for silly silly games.
Great for stalking.
Annoying for random work people adding me.
Great for stalking.
Anyway.
So i did this 25 things thing a little while ago, and i thought i would look over it again. Some of the things, i still agree with. Some have changed. Others i have added to.
**By the by, i know that this is more then 25, but i started this list on my phone and kept adding. I ended up just picking 25 and posting them, but this is my blog, so i make the rules**
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.
25.
1. I have the same middle name as most of the females in my family and I love that if I ever changed my surname to my husbands, I'll still have that.
2. I feel like I have no direction in my life and I love and hate it at the same time. I also haven't got any of those great life plans that people talk about. At the moment, I think I'm hating that. It doesn't give me much to strive for or look forward to. I think i might have some idea of what i want. Not going to share it yet though
3. I sometimes wish I could turn back time to when I didn't have a worry or stress, but then I wouldn't be who I am. I also have trouble finding a time like that.
4. I would do anything in the world for my family, including die for them. If anything happened to any of them, it would break my heart.
5. Re: 4, I think dying in place for someone is rather selfish though.
Think about it, if they are THAT important to you, you must be to them, and if you can't live without them, how could you make them live without you. That said, I would still do it if need be.
6. My favourite colour is pink and although it doesn't seem like it, I like girly dresses, although I'm too insecure about my legs to wear them.
7. I think I know too much about somethings and not enough about others, I wish that the ratio was more even, then I wouldn't be as frustrated/ confused all the time.
8. I believe I have a mild case of OCD. I can't help it, If I need to do something, I need to do it then and do it right according to me.
And if someone else tries to help and does it different, watch out. Working on this one. I'm allowing myself to make more mistakes and changes. Its hard though.
9. I like reading true crime. Mostly child abuse. Not because I'm sick, but because it makes me feel less guilty about my life and more guilty at the same time. I can't explain it, but it's good, I think.
10. Contrary to most peoples belief, I'm really not a bitch, I think it related back to point 8. Although, I do have bad days.
11. I have a bad case of FOMO. I think I have had it all my life, (only it was nameless until recently) and I think it will continue forever.
12. I'm not afraid of dying, but I am afraid about the after ness of dying. What happens if everyone is wrong? (ps. I don't mean to offend anyone with that point.)
13. When ever I listen to music out in public, I always think people can hear it and are judging me on it.
14.I hate when I have to repeat myself. If I'm making the effort to tell you something, you can at least make the effort to listen! Oh my gosh, I hate it.
14.5. I also hate bring questioned when I am asked to help. If you don't like my answer, fine, but don't question me. You asked for MY help.
15. I hold grudges. It doesn't matter how stupid you think I'm being, if I'm crossed, I will hold it up on you, until I lose the motivation or energy to hold it anymore. I can't help it, so sorry in advance. Oh and if I'm told I'm being stupid because of it or the reason is stupid, it will just make it last longer... So probably don't. ; p
16. Re: 15. I'm stubborn. Don't try and change my mind or tell me I'm wrong, it won't work.
17. I like acknowledgement. Selfish probably, but something as simple as a thanks or appreciate it, is enough. I use it as motivation. If I don't get enough, I stop. I think I give it back, let me know if I don't though.I can never accept it though. I always always always just palm it off, in the nicest possible way.
18. Although I'm good at hiding it, (at least I think I am anyway) I am very emotional. Ps. Angry = not an emotion. That's just everyday. ; ) I also care too much about most things.
19. I love love love SLEEP! I could sleep all day, but then I get cross at myself for wasting the day, so I really can't win.
20. I though it would be easier to think of 25 things....
21. It takes a bit to earn my respect, but once you have it, unless you cross me, I will respect you 100%.
22. I wish I was more brave.
23. I moved into my house a few months ago and there are still things to unpack. Some people would blame this on laziness, I blame time and storage space. Do we have any volunteers to do for me? So i was talking about my old house when i posted this the first time, but now a month after moving, same thing. Lets boxes though.
24. If I won the lotto, I think I would only keep enough to pay off my debts/bills, the rest I would give to family then friends.
25. I could spend hours on facebook, stalking everyone I know and then people they know. I think I have a problem of needing to know everything about everyone. I also want to point out, I CAN NOT stand it when people use text speak or misspellings in status updates.
Nothing bugs me more. I blame the OCD.
26. I feel like I'm always putting others before myself.
27. I hate being late, to anywhere.
29. I hate having hair on my clothes, it's the most annoying thing when I can feel it but can't see it.
30. I hate when people do accents. Just hate it. Esp when they are not good at them. Im ok if you HAVE an accent, but if you put one on, my gosh. You may not think you sound bad, but just stop.
31. My phone is ALWAYS on silent. Not because it has to be, but because I can't stand ring tones, any ringtones at all. So if you call and I miss it, the reason is cause I didn't hear/see my phone, not that I'm ignoring you. Although sometimes it is. ; p
32. I need noise to sleep. Although sometimes the noise keeps me awake for longer then I should be awake too...
33. I set 5 alarms to get up. Starting an hour before I have to and in 15 min intervals, that way when I really really have to get up I'm already semi awake and it's not as difficult to get up.
Facebook.
Great for stalking.
Annoying for silly silly games.
Great for stalking.
Annoying for random work people adding me.
Great for stalking.
Anyway.
So i did this 25 things thing a little while ago, and i thought i would look over it again. Some of the things, i still agree with. Some have changed. Others i have added to.
**By the by, i know that this is more then 25, but i started this list on my phone and kept adding. I ended up just picking 25 and posting them, but this is my blog, so i make the rules**
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.
25.
1. I have the same middle name as most of the females in my family and I love that if I ever changed my surname to my husbands, I'll still have that.
2. I feel like I have no direction in my life and I love and hate it at the same time. I also haven't got any of those great life plans that people talk about. At the moment, I think I'm hating that. It doesn't give me much to strive for or look forward to. I think i might have some idea of what i want. Not going to share it yet though
3. I sometimes wish I could turn back time to when I didn't have a worry or stress, but then I wouldn't be who I am. I also have trouble finding a time like that.
4. I would do anything in the world for my family, including die for them. If anything happened to any of them, it would break my heart.
5. Re: 4, I think dying in place for someone is rather selfish though.
Think about it, if they are THAT important to you, you must be to them, and if you can't live without them, how could you make them live without you. That said, I would still do it if need be.
6. My favourite colour is pink and although it doesn't seem like it, I like girly dresses, although I'm too insecure about my legs to wear them.
7. I think I know too much about somethings and not enough about others, I wish that the ratio was more even, then I wouldn't be as frustrated/ confused all the time.
8. I believe I have a mild case of OCD. I can't help it, If I need to do something, I need to do it then and do it right according to me.
And if someone else tries to help and does it different, watch out. Working on this one. I'm allowing myself to make more mistakes and changes. Its hard though.
9. I like reading true crime. Mostly child abuse. Not because I'm sick, but because it makes me feel less guilty about my life and more guilty at the same time. I can't explain it, but it's good, I think.
10. Contrary to most peoples belief, I'm really not a bitch, I think it related back to point 8. Although, I do have bad days.
11. I have a bad case of FOMO. I think I have had it all my life, (only it was nameless until recently) and I think it will continue forever.
12. I'm not afraid of dying, but I am afraid about the after ness of dying. What happens if everyone is wrong? (ps. I don't mean to offend anyone with that point.)
13. When ever I listen to music out in public, I always think people can hear it and are judging me on it.
14.I hate when I have to repeat myself. If I'm making the effort to tell you something, you can at least make the effort to listen! Oh my gosh, I hate it.
14.5. I also hate bring questioned when I am asked to help. If you don't like my answer, fine, but don't question me. You asked for MY help.
15. I hold grudges. It doesn't matter how stupid you think I'm being, if I'm crossed, I will hold it up on you, until I lose the motivation or energy to hold it anymore. I can't help it, so sorry in advance. Oh and if I'm told I'm being stupid because of it or the reason is stupid, it will just make it last longer... So probably don't. ; p
16. Re: 15. I'm stubborn. Don't try and change my mind or tell me I'm wrong, it won't work.
17. I like acknowledgement. Selfish probably, but something as simple as a thanks or appreciate it, is enough. I use it as motivation. If I don't get enough, I stop. I think I give it back, let me know if I don't though.I can never accept it though. I always always always just palm it off, in the nicest possible way.
18. Although I'm good at hiding it, (at least I think I am anyway) I am very emotional. Ps. Angry = not an emotion. That's just everyday. ; ) I also care too much about most things.
19. I love love love SLEEP! I could sleep all day, but then I get cross at myself for wasting the day, so I really can't win.
20. I though it would be easier to think of 25 things....
21. It takes a bit to earn my respect, but once you have it, unless you cross me, I will respect you 100%.
22. I wish I was more brave.
23. I moved into my house a few months ago and there are still things to unpack. Some people would blame this on laziness, I blame time and storage space. Do we have any volunteers to do for me? So i was talking about my old house when i posted this the first time, but now a month after moving, same thing. Lets boxes though.
24. If I won the lotto, I think I would only keep enough to pay off my debts/bills, the rest I would give to family then friends.
25. I could spend hours on facebook, stalking everyone I know and then people they know. I think I have a problem of needing to know everything about everyone. I also want to point out, I CAN NOT stand it when people use text speak or misspellings in status updates.
Nothing bugs me more. I blame the OCD.
26. I feel like I'm always putting others before myself.
27. I hate being late, to anywhere.
29. I hate having hair on my clothes, it's the most annoying thing when I can feel it but can't see it.
30. I hate when people do accents. Just hate it. Esp when they are not good at them. Im ok if you HAVE an accent, but if you put one on, my gosh. You may not think you sound bad, but just stop.
31. My phone is ALWAYS on silent. Not because it has to be, but because I can't stand ring tones, any ringtones at all. So if you call and I miss it, the reason is cause I didn't hear/see my phone, not that I'm ignoring you. Although sometimes it is. ; p
32. I need noise to sleep. Although sometimes the noise keeps me awake for longer then I should be awake too...
33. I set 5 alarms to get up. Starting an hour before I have to and in 15 min intervals, that way when I really really have to get up I'm already semi awake and it's not as difficult to get up.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old;
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning
We will remember them.
Lest We Forget.
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning
We will remember them.
Lest We Forget.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Ahhh, internet. I thought i would never see you again.
So i finally have Internet at home.
After a trillion phone calls, and using too much data on my phone (I'm gonna regret it when my bill comes), it was connected yesterday. Or, last night.
It would have been two weeks tomorrow.
I felt like i was in a third world country or something.
I even had access to more Internet when i was in Japan then i did now.
(FYI. My work has Internet access, obv. but they also have a thing called websense, which blocks all the good sites, so it might as well suck).
Anyway, being almost 2 weeks in our new house, i think we have done pretty good with the unpacking business. We still have a few boxes, and i know we have some books that haven't yet been unpacked and i feel like not all my clothes are unpacked, but who knows. Its at that point where we can live and not be missing anything. It doesn't matter that our (small) sun room is half full with boxes. At our last (two) places, i think we had basically the same amount of stuff not unpacked either... Its a matter of going through and throwing around stuff, and who has the time to do that? Lets be honest.
Back to the Internet, do you know how hard it was to go two weeks without reading other blogs? I honestly just spent about 4 hours catching up. (probably time i could have unpacked and sorted.... oh well).
We got my family to help us move and while i felt really bad for my dad, cause he was doing a lot of the packing into the car and lifting (heaps of moving experience), he is my dad and i worry. Don't fret though, the husband and the brother, and the sisters semi new boyfriend were also helping.
It was kinda good that my dad has heaps of moving experience, cause my step mum volunteered to get left at the new house (which i thought was an easy way out), but she cleaned so much and unpacked the kitchen and the bathroom AND EVEN made our bed for us. It was so nice to not have to do that at the end of the day when we were so tired. AND its even nicer to be searching for something in the bathroom or kitchen and be like, hmmmm, i would put here and voila! its already there!
I also felt bad for my dad though, cause he wanted to leave to get home in time to watch a new show, but i knew cause he was so tired that if he DID get home in time, he would probably fall asleep, but it turns out they didn't get home in time. I think i might buy it for him.
As i have mentioned several times, i think, I'm working in a different department at the moment. Not too bad, but not good enough that i would want to work there as part of my job, although, my boss did suggest if i liked it, he would see what he could do for me to be there permanently, which was nice seeing as he has never tried before.
I have this problem though, that i have to be working 100% or more all day until i know that all the work is done. Then i get bored and I'll admit annoying. This department spends a lot of time waiting on other peoples responses/opinions and a lot of time doing i dunno what. I just know when I'm working at my normal pace, they are all shocked that i get through the work so quickly. Its all very strange.
Anyway, that's not why i bought work up. Parts of my company are getting, i guess integrated into the company that majority owns us. That's the easiest way i can explain it without going into the whole she bang of it all. What it means is part of the company will be moving locations, salaries and some of them will get new bosses. My (proper) department is part of the ones who get all three. Location, salary and a new boss.
Now, I'm not too fussed with the location thing, my work has moved in the past, and it actually works out cheaper for me to get there, so very meh about that. My only complaint is that i was sick as a dog on the day i was supposed to go over to the new location and haven't been there yet.
Salary isn't even worth mentioning, cause its like a $50 increase. Different team, same department as us, is still on more then us even though they do less then us, and i lose my loadings, (cause i finish at a certain time). So $50 up, but $200 down a week. So much for the company being all about no one being negatively affected... The husband got a MAJOR rise though, so even though it pointed out my suckiness even more, i guess it works out ok.
The new boss is my major thing though. My current boss doesn't do much for us. But IMO i think its cause we were just palmed off onto him and he is really a manager of another department. BUT, that said, its better the devil you know. My boss knows how i work and when i get cranky to just let me be for 5-10 mins and I'll get over it. I haven't met the new boss yet. I'm also a little anxious about meeting him, cause my current boss, (and other people) have said all these good things about me, (which aren't lies) and i have it in my head that he (new boss) may be waiting for me to screw up. You know, what happens when people are put on a pedestal. I don't know if that is the case, or if its just me being all hard on myself.
OH! Thats why i bought up work... next week is our last week at our current location and i just dont feel like it is. At all. I dont know if its cause im working with a team that isn't moving, (well, they are moving floors), or what, but it hasn't hit me yet that i wont be catching the train to work after next week. That i won't be sitting at MY desk. That i have to pack up my desk... All those things. Its odd.
So i hvae drivelled on for long enough, and considering its now 2.30 in the afternoon and i have been reading the internets since 10, (dont judge, its the weekend), i best get up.
PS. Oh, just so you know and i don't feel bad, we totally gave my family money for helping us. Even though they didn't want to accept it, cause they are family, the time they spend helping us, they totally deserved it.
After a trillion phone calls, and using too much data on my phone (I'm gonna regret it when my bill comes), it was connected yesterday. Or, last night.
It would have been two weeks tomorrow.
I felt like i was in a third world country or something.
I even had access to more Internet when i was in Japan then i did now.
(FYI. My work has Internet access, obv. but they also have a thing called websense, which blocks all the good sites, so it might as well suck).
Anyway, being almost 2 weeks in our new house, i think we have done pretty good with the unpacking business. We still have a few boxes, and i know we have some books that haven't yet been unpacked and i feel like not all my clothes are unpacked, but who knows. Its at that point where we can live and not be missing anything. It doesn't matter that our (small) sun room is half full with boxes. At our last (two) places, i think we had basically the same amount of stuff not unpacked either... Its a matter of going through and throwing around stuff, and who has the time to do that? Lets be honest.
Back to the Internet, do you know how hard it was to go two weeks without reading other blogs? I honestly just spent about 4 hours catching up. (probably time i could have unpacked and sorted.... oh well).
We got my family to help us move and while i felt really bad for my dad, cause he was doing a lot of the packing into the car and lifting (heaps of moving experience), he is my dad and i worry. Don't fret though, the husband and the brother, and the sisters semi new boyfriend were also helping.
It was kinda good that my dad has heaps of moving experience, cause my step mum volunteered to get left at the new house (which i thought was an easy way out), but she cleaned so much and unpacked the kitchen and the bathroom AND EVEN made our bed for us. It was so nice to not have to do that at the end of the day when we were so tired. AND its even nicer to be searching for something in the bathroom or kitchen and be like, hmmmm, i would put here and voila! its already there!
I also felt bad for my dad though, cause he wanted to leave to get home in time to watch a new show, but i knew cause he was so tired that if he DID get home in time, he would probably fall asleep, but it turns out they didn't get home in time. I think i might buy it for him.
As i have mentioned several times, i think, I'm working in a different department at the moment. Not too bad, but not good enough that i would want to work there as part of my job, although, my boss did suggest if i liked it, he would see what he could do for me to be there permanently, which was nice seeing as he has never tried before.
I have this problem though, that i have to be working 100% or more all day until i know that all the work is done. Then i get bored and I'll admit annoying. This department spends a lot of time waiting on other peoples responses/opinions and a lot of time doing i dunno what. I just know when I'm working at my normal pace, they are all shocked that i get through the work so quickly. Its all very strange.
Anyway, that's not why i bought work up. Parts of my company are getting, i guess integrated into the company that majority owns us. That's the easiest way i can explain it without going into the whole she bang of it all. What it means is part of the company will be moving locations, salaries and some of them will get new bosses. My (proper) department is part of the ones who get all three. Location, salary and a new boss.
Now, I'm not too fussed with the location thing, my work has moved in the past, and it actually works out cheaper for me to get there, so very meh about that. My only complaint is that i was sick as a dog on the day i was supposed to go over to the new location and haven't been there yet.
Salary isn't even worth mentioning, cause its like a $50 increase. Different team, same department as us, is still on more then us even though they do less then us, and i lose my loadings, (cause i finish at a certain time). So $50 up, but $200 down a week. So much for the company being all about no one being negatively affected... The husband got a MAJOR rise though, so even though it pointed out my suckiness even more, i guess it works out ok.
The new boss is my major thing though. My current boss doesn't do much for us. But IMO i think its cause we were just palmed off onto him and he is really a manager of another department. BUT, that said, its better the devil you know. My boss knows how i work and when i get cranky to just let me be for 5-10 mins and I'll get over it. I haven't met the new boss yet. I'm also a little anxious about meeting him, cause my current boss, (and other people) have said all these good things about me, (which aren't lies) and i have it in my head that he (new boss) may be waiting for me to screw up. You know, what happens when people are put on a pedestal. I don't know if that is the case, or if its just me being all hard on myself.
OH! Thats why i bought up work... next week is our last week at our current location and i just dont feel like it is. At all. I dont know if its cause im working with a team that isn't moving, (well, they are moving floors), or what, but it hasn't hit me yet that i wont be catching the train to work after next week. That i won't be sitting at MY desk. That i have to pack up my desk... All those things. Its odd.
So i hvae drivelled on for long enough, and considering its now 2.30 in the afternoon and i have been reading the internets since 10, (dont judge, its the weekend), i best get up.
PS. Oh, just so you know and i don't feel bad, we totally gave my family money for helping us. Even though they didn't want to accept it, cause they are family, the time they spend helping us, they totally deserved it.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
And in other news...
So I haven't blogged in a while cause I moved house and amongst making 16 billion calls to get the phone connected to get the Internet connected someon screwed up an I STILL have no Internet. I have been at my house for over a week. You don't know ho crazy I'm going.
Ps. I'm writing this from my phone, so spelling mistakes, blame the iPhone. Spell check is WAY too hard to use on it.
Anyway, couple of things....
I have spoken about this before but it still pisses me off.
My name is RENEE, two e's no 'accent' on top of the second e. Simple right?
NO!!!
A COMPANY WIDE email was sent out today with my name spelt RENE. ummm, so like I said in my Twitter:
Rene = penis. (it's the boys version)
ReneE = me, with no penis.
It really isn't that hard to confirm, honestly.
It made me really really cross and honestly? It made me feel SUPER underappreciated. And that just sucks.
In other news, we had a party for work last night, (Monday night here, stupid), but anyway, a girl got very very drunk, (which is a little hard to do, our work has a very high drinking culture, call centres basically do), she was quite so drunk that she threw up in front of the bar and yet, continued drinking... She was also wearif high high heels. Take note.
Later in the night, she happened to fall down the stairs and hurt herself.
Today, she is saying someone spiked her drink.
Now I in NO WAY condone drink spiking and would believe anyone saying that happened, but I saw how much she drank and I kinda lost respect for her when she came out and said that someone 'must have put something in her drink cause if she had drank as much as EVERYONE is saying she did she would have a hangover'.
Ps. Not the first time that someone has injured themselves at a work function from drinking too much.
And I'm gonna end it on this.
I'm moving work places in about 8 days. (same job, different location) and I just don't feel like it's happening yet. It's so odd.
Ps. I'm writing this from my phone, so spelling mistakes, blame the iPhone. Spell check is WAY too hard to use on it.
Anyway, couple of things....
I have spoken about this before but it still pisses me off.
My name is RENEE, two e's no 'accent' on top of the second e. Simple right?
NO!!!
A COMPANY WIDE email was sent out today with my name spelt RENE. ummm, so like I said in my Twitter:
Rene = penis. (it's the boys version)
ReneE = me, with no penis.
It really isn't that hard to confirm, honestly.
It made me really really cross and honestly? It made me feel SUPER underappreciated. And that just sucks.
In other news, we had a party for work last night, (Monday night here, stupid), but anyway, a girl got very very drunk, (which is a little hard to do, our work has a very high drinking culture, call centres basically do), she was quite so drunk that she threw up in front of the bar and yet, continued drinking... She was also wearif high high heels. Take note.
Later in the night, she happened to fall down the stairs and hurt herself.
Today, she is saying someone spiked her drink.
Now I in NO WAY condone drink spiking and would believe anyone saying that happened, but I saw how much she drank and I kinda lost respect for her when she came out and said that someone 'must have put something in her drink cause if she had drank as much as EVERYONE is saying she did she would have a hangover'.
Ps. Not the first time that someone has injured themselves at a work function from drinking too much.
And I'm gonna end it on this.
I'm moving work places in about 8 days. (same job, different location) and I just don't feel like it's happening yet. It's so odd.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
What do i want?
What do i want?
I ask myself this sometimes, and i never have an answer.
I'm not talking about wanting to have that thing in that shop, or have never ending amount of money.
I'm talking about life.
What do i want out of my life?
I don't know what i want.
I don't know what i want with my career, i don't know what i want in my house, or even what kind of house i want.
I don't know where i REALLY want to live.
I don't know whether i want to own my house or rent forever.
I don't know if i want to go and live overseas away from my family or close enough to them to see them every day.
I don't know if i want to live pay check to pay check or have spare money at the end of the week to save.
I don't know if i should be happy about how i live or if I'm not normal.
Sometimes i don't even know what happy is.
I don't know if i want to be a worker for the rest of my life or if i would make a better stay at home mum.
I know the 'proper' answers to these questions.
I know what people 'should' do.
But i don't know what i want.
Sometimes this scares me. Most of the time.
But i don't know what i can do about it.
I ask myself this sometimes, and i never have an answer.
I'm not talking about wanting to have that thing in that shop, or have never ending amount of money.
I'm talking about life.
What do i want out of my life?
I don't know what i want.
I don't know what i want with my career, i don't know what i want in my house, or even what kind of house i want.
I don't know where i REALLY want to live.
I don't know whether i want to own my house or rent forever.
I don't know if i want to go and live overseas away from my family or close enough to them to see them every day.
I don't know if i want to live pay check to pay check or have spare money at the end of the week to save.
I don't know if i should be happy about how i live or if I'm not normal.
Sometimes i don't even know what happy is.
I don't know if i want to be a worker for the rest of my life or if i would make a better stay at home mum.
I know the 'proper' answers to these questions.
I know what people 'should' do.
But i don't know what i want.
Sometimes this scares me. Most of the time.
But i don't know what i can do about it.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Bedside Manner FAIL
I want to start by saying, i hate the phrase FAIL, like really hate it. But here it is needed.
So as you all know, i went to the dentist a WHOLE 2ish weeks ago cause i had a HORRIBLE toothache.
REAL BAD.
Anyway, so the dentist is not covered under Medicare. Which is basically kinda like the health care that Obama just bought into the US, i guess. Anyway, its expensive. Like real expensive. That's part of the reason why i hadn't gone in so long. Another part is because they suck.
So, the pain continued. It made me want to LIVE on pain pills, not the addicted type, but the 'i need to go to work and sleep and eat and without the pills, i physically can NOT do these things'. In fact i had to leave work early a few times because i just couldn't concentrate on what i had in front of me.
So i made another appointment. I had gone to a second dentist as i said here and they were all like, it could be this, it could be that. But they wanted to fix it under local. Now, i can't do that. I hear things and see things and i freak the fuck out. My whole body was shaking uncontrollably and they were like, nah, not going to work.
So i went back to the original place.
Now, one would assume, a dentist would know what the hell the problem is. I mean your mouth ain't that big. Doctors, they are a different story, but dentists, there ain't that much for them to think about.
I went in there thinking, i would leave with LESS pain. LESS, not none, i understand that things take time, so LESS would be good. Being able to touch my face when I'm in pain, i would like that. Being able to keep my eye open, when the pain happens, that would be great too.
Yeah, no.
What i got was yelled at, more pain and no conformation about what the actual problem is!!
Lets look at BEDSIDE MANNER:
Poor bedside manner leaves the patient feeling unsatisfied, worried, frightened, or alone.
When suggesting a fix, maybe don't try the same thing as i had two weeks ago, that i know didn't work, cause the pain got worse. Worried.
When i say, I'm scared that that pain will come back, AND I AM SHAKING UNCONTROLLABLY, don't say it maybe will, cause i don't know what the problem is. Frightened.
Don't say, in my 30 years of being a dentist i have never seen something like this before. unsatisfied
Don't say, if it was me, i would have come back sooner. You are a dentist, you charge people SHIT LOADS, of course you would come back sooner, YOU CAN AFFORD TOO!! Alone.
Wow, good work there, jerk face.
Ps. Just so you all know, the dentist i went to was BONDI BEACH DENTAL and i think my dentist name was Dr Sih, but not sure, cause he never introduced himself to me. Another thing that deserves a good job, jerk.
PPS. I have an itch on my lip, but i can't scratch it cause its still numb. Annoying.
So as you all know, i went to the dentist a WHOLE 2ish weeks ago cause i had a HORRIBLE toothache.
REAL BAD.
Anyway, so the dentist is not covered under Medicare. Which is basically kinda like the health care that Obama just bought into the US, i guess. Anyway, its expensive. Like real expensive. That's part of the reason why i hadn't gone in so long. Another part is because they suck.
So, the pain continued. It made me want to LIVE on pain pills, not the addicted type, but the 'i need to go to work and sleep and eat and without the pills, i physically can NOT do these things'. In fact i had to leave work early a few times because i just couldn't concentrate on what i had in front of me.
So i made another appointment. I had gone to a second dentist as i said here and they were all like, it could be this, it could be that. But they wanted to fix it under local. Now, i can't do that. I hear things and see things and i freak the fuck out. My whole body was shaking uncontrollably and they were like, nah, not going to work.
So i went back to the original place.
Now, one would assume, a dentist would know what the hell the problem is. I mean your mouth ain't that big. Doctors, they are a different story, but dentists, there ain't that much for them to think about.
I went in there thinking, i would leave with LESS pain. LESS, not none, i understand that things take time, so LESS would be good. Being able to touch my face when I'm in pain, i would like that. Being able to keep my eye open, when the pain happens, that would be great too.
Yeah, no.
What i got was yelled at, more pain and no conformation about what the actual problem is!!
Lets look at BEDSIDE MANNER:
Bedside manner is a term describing how a health care professional handles a patient, and is essential in affecting the doctor-patient relationship. A good bedside manner is typically one that reassures and comforts the patient while remaining honest about a diagnosis. Poor bedside manner leaves the patient feeling unsatisfied, worried, frightened, or alone. Bedside manner becomes difficult when a health care professional explains to the patient the true diagnosis, while keeping the patient from being alarmed.
Poor bedside manner leaves the patient feeling unsatisfied, worried, frightened, or alone.
When suggesting a fix, maybe don't try the same thing as i had two weeks ago, that i know didn't work, cause the pain got worse. Worried.
When i say, I'm scared that that pain will come back, AND I AM SHAKING UNCONTROLLABLY, don't say it maybe will, cause i don't know what the problem is. Frightened.
Don't say, in my 30 years of being a dentist i have never seen something like this before. unsatisfied
Don't say, if it was me, i would have come back sooner. You are a dentist, you charge people SHIT LOADS, of course you would come back sooner, YOU CAN AFFORD TOO!! Alone.
Wow, good work there, jerk face.
Ps. Just so you all know, the dentist i went to was BONDI BEACH DENTAL and i think my dentist name was Dr Sih, but not sure, cause he never introduced himself to me. Another thing that deserves a good job, jerk.
PPS. I have an itch on my lip, but i can't scratch it cause its still numb. Annoying.
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