Wednesday, December 30, 2009

2009 - we hardly knew you.

I was going to try not to make it a lame post about the year past, but really, that's what it is gonna be about, so whatever.

This year has gone by so super quick, and i know everyone says that at this time of the year, but truly, this year totally has, (and i know they say that too).

This year has been a semi big year for you.

I went overseas for the first time. Japan. I liked it, the people were nice, wasn't so fond of the snow and not being able to talk Japanese, but it was nice all the same.

I applied for a job i really wanted and didn't get it. I applied for another job just recently and didn't get it. I started casually looking for a new job. (This is gonna beef up in the new year, for sure).

I turned 24, and that is old. I also spend the smallest amount of time ever at a casino.

I cried a lot.

I grew a lot too.

Here are some things that i want to change in 2010.

~ I will listen to better music more. Things like INXS (with JD and Micheal), and Jimmy, and Cat (or Yusuf), and Grinspoon and goodness like that.
~ I WILL pay off ALL my credit cards and actually save money.
~ I will keep my house (mostly) clean
~ I will get a new job.
~ I will be happier.
~ I will see my family more. Whether i go up (or down) to them, or they come to me.
~ I will turn 25, whether i like it or not.
~ I will have more FUN.
~ I will watch less DVDs and go to the movies more. (The husband will like this one).
~ I will take less holidays, but i will go on more adventures.

I hope i met them all.

And i will end on this overheard question:

"when its 2010, will you have to write '010, or just '10 when you write the date?"
They were quite perplexed.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Alone vs. Annoyance vs. TV vs. Jobs

Sometimes i think i would be better off alone.
Like not so much single, as alone.

People annoy me. Doesn't matter who.
They mostly all annoy me.
More so at Christmas time.

But i think it would suit me, most of the time.
I would get lonely of course, but then i could control it.
I think i have OCD, you see.
Totally self diagnosed, but still.

I have to know stuff. I need to be able to control the things that affect me.
Its bad. Some times its really bad.

I think i could do it.
The alone thing though.


I can't stand the people who put animals as their Facebook profile.

Sure, you will give your (correct) name, hometown, relationship status, job details and even your Date of Birth.
But a photo of you?!?
No, that can't be done.
Its not like someone can steal your identity with the rest of it, they totally need a photo of you to complete their thievery.

And the only photos you have are of your animals?
Really, you annoy me.


I started watching Chuck.
I have to be honest. Not really sucking me in.

Weeds on the other hand.
So much for this lasting the off season.
I have managed to get through 3 seasons in about a week.
And the only reason, we switched to Chuck was because we couldn't purchase anymore Weeds here. Gotta wait for it to be shipped from overseas.


I applied for 3 jobs last week.
With different companies.

I have realised that my job isn't going to get me anywhere.

3 jobs I wanted. Well, I wanted 2 of the 3; I just thought 3 was a better number to start with.

I have holidays in January, so I was only gonna start small. (Cos I really want my holidays, dammit!!)

One of the jobs doesn't start til 1 February, so that totally works.

One of the other jobs is a night job. Like earliest start is 9pm and latest finish is 7am. I don’t think I can do that one. I kinda want to try it, see what its like, but the husband doesn't think i should. Cause the whole not seeing each other, and it being further away then the other two. But that company is the one that i want. I don't know.

I have gotten 3 call backs.
One of them did a phone interview and arranged for an actual interview. That’s the good February one.

The other arranged a phone interview.

The third i haven't called back yet. I'm going to call them tomorrow. They seemed very interested though.

I didn't know that I was that much in demand.
If I had known, I would have looked around long ago. (Probably not, but lets say I would).

I have the actual interview on Tuesday.
That is scary.
Apart from the internal jobs, I haven't had an interview in over 5 years.
And before those internal interviews, it would have been at least 36 months since an interview.

I totally work well under pressure, so that’s not a problem in the interviewingness.
I don’t like talking myself up.
I don’t think what I do is extraordinary, so I don’t know how to justify saying that I am.

I hope I get one of them.
I need the change.
I don’t like change. But I really need it now.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Grief and Judgement.

I read this story today.

Now, while I can’t say that I would or wouldn't do that, I don’t want to say that she did the wrong thing, unlike some of the people who left comments on this article.

Let’s go over the facts.

She asked her older son to do something with the pool, (get a hose or something out of it).
He didn’t realise the gate didn’t shut. It happens. Not his fault.

Mum and older son were then working on something together.
She was not on the computer, or neglecting her children. Not by my standards anyway.

When she realised her son was in the pool, she called the paramedics.
She didn’t ‘tweet’ right away.

Not until the paramedics were there and working on her son, did she reach out for some help.
She asked people for PRAYER.
Just the same as if she had called her family/friends, and not used twitter, she asked for help.
What was she supposed to do?
Jump in and help the paramedics? Stop them from helping her son?

And then.
She was remembering her son when he was gone.
People write memorial posts all the time in the blog world.
People talk about their past losses.
People share with other people about them too.
This is what she was doing.

The difference is she had a limit of 160 characters. She had the thoughts of over 5000 people with her.

People grieve differently. People have fear and pain and they act differently.
Maybe she felt everything was out of control and twitter was something she had control over?

Like I said, I can’t say that I would or wouldn’t do that, I don’t want to say that she did the wrong thing.


Thursday, December 17, 2009

Little letters or something...

So i remember seeing this on someone blog, but i can't really remember AND i already kinda do this, so its not really stealing, really its just the title, but anyway.

Dear Glee,
I heart you. I really do. And i usually don't like singing.
Although in the finale, where parts of the audience was standing while you all were singing, cheesy and i hated that. Don't do that anymore please.

Dear illnesses,
If you come near me one more time this year, i will be very cross. Its like 12 days, come on now. In fact, while I'm here, current illness, please go away right now.

Dear Sam Worthington,
You are so fine, that i am kinda more willing then i seem about wanting to see a stupid movie about giant blue people.

Dear How I Met your Mother,
Marshall and Lily make this show.
Although, I'm not loving how angry Lily has gotten lately.
Whats that about?

Dear Credit cards,
We can be friends in January, i promise i will really try and pay you back in time, but it was Christmas, can't you just hold off with the interest for a little while?

Dear Michael C Hall,
You are amazing.
That is all.
Wait, no its not. I have to say, its a little creepy you married your TV sister.

Dear Job i applied for,
I know i probably didn't get you, and to be honest, i don't know if i still want you. I will be a little disappointed sure, but something tells me that it wont be my loss.

Dear Dexter writers,
OMG to the finale, first.
Second, i really really liked her. Sad.

Dear Christmas parties,
You kinda sucked this year.
Big time.
I don't know if i hope I'm here next year to experience another good one.

Dear True Blood,
Will you ever come back?
I need me some Eric.

Dear PostSecret,
I like that i usually end my weekend on you.

Dear Weeds,
I have heard good things about you.
I'm just using and abusing you in the off season, but you better not disappoint.

Dear Lips,
Why do you get so dry when i drink loads of water?
Should that not not dry you out?

Dear Etsy,
I really love you.
I wish i was a gazillionaire, so i could spend all my money on you.
I totally would.

Dear Robbie Williams,
I admit it, i love you.

Dear Spellcheck,
Stop telling me my words are not real.
The more you do that, the more i will question your spelling ability.

That's all i got for now, but I'm sure that i will continue this letters business, (if i don't forget)

Monday, December 14, 2009

Dear Santa,

I would like the following please.

One PINK Smeg fridge.

(I'll also need a bigger kitchen to put it in too, though.

One You are all I need poster for said kitchen

I like the red, but it does come in other colours too. I'll accept any, to be honest.

And if you can't get that, I'll also gladly accept the following:

(even though I'm not)

Cause who doesn't need one of them?

I also would like one of these:



And even though i may not wear it, i would like

this too:

Now Santa, i know that you have to deliver junk to all the kids, (really, do they not already have enough, with their no responsibilities and freedom? Really?!?), but come on now.

Thanks Santa.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Tweet Tweet!!

I <3 Twitter.
I really really do.

Here are 10 reasons why its great.

1. Its 140 characters. Its means you gotta be blunt, and that's what i do best!
2. There are no stupid quizzes like Facebook. (or at least none that i have found yet, give it time, i guess).
3. You can follow famous people.
4. You can unfollow annoying famous people.
5. You can update it 20 times a day, and people don't judge you.
6. I twitter. That alone should be enough!
7. Look, I'm too lazy to think of 10, but i gave you 6, so that should be good enough, alright!

Here are the words i most use in my tweets:

And here are some of MY most favourite tweets:

Apparently, I'm funny....
Nope, that wasn't a self compliment. I have been told that.
Yep. Its true. By more then one person too.
I know right?
I'll be honest. They did say that my twitter was funny, but potato, potatoe.

Now, i don't try to be funny, i kinda of use my twitter for a outlet for my anger, and then a notepad thing for blogs, and my brain thoughts, and then for some more anger, and then for cool websites/links that people should look at right now.

I didn't even know how to do the photo thing til recently, and then it was by accident.

So anyway, back to me being funny, (cause its so evidential in this post).

I have tweeted more then 2000 times, and i have selected a few that i think are kinda funny, but maybe not, but then I'm not the one who thinks I'm funny, so maybe I'm not the best person to choose them...

My stupid back is still stupid hurting cause its stupid and hates me. I can totally live without a back right? Its just my lower back...
about 22 hours ago from web

Just washed my hair and got shampoo in my eyes, up my nose and in my mouth. Am i retarded?!?
about 14 hours ago from web

Why are people scared of the rain? It was like 4 billion degrees but now every ones under shelter... People need to walk in the rain more.
9:51 AM Nov 24th from Tweetie

When you are watching a tvshow on DVD, you should be able to skip the opening & end credits. Are you listening tv show DVD makers?!?
11:57 PM Nov 22nd from Tweetie

Why do my lips feel drier when i drink a lot more water then normal? Can someone explain this please?
Really, people, i wanna know this
3:38 PM Nov 19th from web

I hate people who drag their feet. If they are REALLY that heavy, lose some freaking weight, fatty.
11:19 AM Nov 19th from web

I burnt my tongue testing to see if dinner was ready, and then it didn't taste good when i was eating it for real... I think it was good...
8:53 PM Nov 18th from web

I have realised that i LOVE my parents music more then my our era's. I was born at the wrong time.
11:43 AM Nov 18th from web

Sometimes i just agree with what someone is saying cause i can't understand them or wasn't listening... but everyone does that, right?

6:18 PM Nov 17th from web

Does anyone else remember playing, 'heads down, thumbs up' at school? I can't remember (apart from that) how it went.
If you remember, can you please tell me? I still can't remember
10:58 AM Nov 17th from web

Everclear, what ever happened to you? You were so good. Anyone?
2:29 PM Nov 16th from web

Just saw the saddest thing. A dog that had been debarked was trying to bark his heart out, but nothing... So sad.
9:34 AM Nov 16th from Tweetie

Have to admit, the latest Star Trek movie IS pretty good. It could just be that hotness of Mr Quinto, though. Feel free to mock now.
Another reason why i love Heroes too.
5:57 PM Nov 15th from mobile web

I want to rip my teeth out. They hurt... I could totally pull off the toothless look, i reckon.
10:19 PM Nov 13th from web

I'm starting to love this sexy voice thing I've got going on at the moment... It does kinda hurt though... Worth it. I had laryngitis at this time
6:33 PM Nov 12th from Tweetie

David Bowie, you are amazing. He truly is.
6:13 PM Nov 11th from web

Internet, why are you being a shit? 404 is BS and you know it. I have no work to do and need to be entertained, so just WORK!!!I hate 404 error
4:14 PM Nov 11th from web

When you fax something, do you get charged per page or per completed faxing? Like if the fax was yours and not at a newsagent or something.Again, can anyone tell me this?
8:29 AM Nov 10th from web

I wish you could bank sleep. Then make withdrawals when you need more. I'll have an extra 3 hours now please. Can someone get on that?
6:02 AM Nov 10th from Tweetie

Sometimes I wish Twitter was attached to my brain so I wouldn't need to type and my thoughts would just be there.. It would be much easier.
7:05 PM Nov 9th from Tweetie

Sunshine Cleaning. Go hire it. Now.
12:25 AM Nov 9th from web

A league of their own is a great movie. Cleaning pause. I was cleaning my house with the TV on, bad idea
2:26 PM Nov 8th from web

I'd chose Harry over Tom any day.Harry Potter over Tom Cruise. I still stand by my choice.
9:03 PM Nov 6th from Tweetie

I haven't peed all day. That can't be good.
6:06 PM Nov 6th from web

So today is not gonna be good. I've got that drunk unbalanced thing going on already & I haven't left my house yet. Or been drinking.
9:37 AM Nov 6th from Tweetie

You are not butterfly man, you are evil butterfly man.Hiro from Heroes.
12:08 AM Nov 6th from Tweetie

Inside my ribs are itchy.
11:54 PM Nov 5th from Tweetie

Josh Thomas, you are great.
7:23 PM Nov 4th from web

I need a new computer. But don't want to have to buy one. Anyone wanna give me one for no monies?
1:14 PM Nov 4th from web

Big Bang Theory, i love you.
8:08 PM Nov 2nd from web

Sometimes i want to punch Rove in the face, but i can't not watch his show. I have a problem.This ended up being like his 2nd last show EVER.
9:50 PM Nov 1st from web

Um, people driving up and down out the front of my house playing 2pac, it's not 1996. Get some new music. Maybe Y those people yelled at U.For the record, i love/d Tupac. Just not when I'm trying to sleep
1:14 AM Nov 1st from Tweetie

No matter what anybody tries to tell you, Brain shots = not a good idea
10:02 PM Oct 30th from web

Wigs are not as fun as they seem at first...
12:55 PM Oct 30th from web

I wanna go to Sean Penn, Cambodia with Zev and Justin.
9:54 PM Oct 29th from web

I will not be lazy today, I will not be lazy today, I will not be lazy today, I will not be lazy today. Lets face it. I probably will.I probably totally was to be honest
10:48 AM Oct 29th from web

I have wonder woman on my ass, and she has been bothering me all day.
9:40 PM Oct 28th from web

Does anyone else walk race randoms on the street? Secretly, of course. I did just then and totally lost. It was a close call though.
7:09 PM Oct 28th from Tweetie

Just got a email that might have been insulting but not sure... Apparently i have a large persons voice?!?!
3:47 PM Oct 28th from web

I don't want to take off my socks cause it's so darn cold, but I have to have a shower. Oh the dilemma.
8:55 AM Oct 26th from Tweetie

Cake mix is purchased. Forgot the milk, eggs and butter, but almost there. And still have plenty of time.
8:16 PM Oct 25th from web

Excuse me man at maccas, just cause your a bouncer at a strip joint and you have your kid with you, doesn't mean lines don't exist for you.
8:59 PM Oct 23rd from Tweetie

Lets be honest, Tomato sauce with anything is good, right now, tomato sauce and lettuce. Yum!!
1:42 PM Oct 23rd from web

I don't know if i smell like it, or my work smells like it, but i can smell pot. And i didn't smell it before i went to lunch. hmmmm...
1:26 PM Oct 23rd from web

Tomato sauce and cheese has to be one of the best things to eat ever. (i have other things as well, not just that, I'm not a freak).
1:22 PM Oct 23rd from web

So people on the street, are you happy? I didn't wear a dress, but this jeans are making my knees itch. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED?!? Every morning i look out my window to see what the people on the street are wearing to know the type of weather
9:50 AM Oct 23rd from Tweetie

Sometimes i think if i punched someone in the face, it would do the world a favour... how i wish i could help the world.
12:14 PM Oct 22nd from web

I feel like I'm still asleep but am at work and expected to do stuff. This is hard.And i wasn't even hung over!!
11:09 AM Oct 22nd from web

I hate when people bang my desk. Do it again and i will bang your head.
11:22 AM Oct 20th from web

My coaster smells like play doh....
3:00 PM Oct 16th from Tweetie

John Mellancamp, i really really really love you. really.I really really do
1:04 PM Oct 12th from web

Do fish close their eyes when they sleep? Like, do they have eyelids? I think Spike is either ignoring me, or is sleeping...
5:06 PM Oct 8th from web

Dear God, please make it an actual Spring (or Summer) day tomorrow (or Saturday). I have a new dress I would like to wear. Thanks God. Amen.
3:55 PM Oct 8th from Tweetie

Its not a bad thing that i love proving stupid people wrong & that it may be my most favourite thing ever, right?
2:32 PM Oct 1st from web

After a while of eating Burger Rings, they kinda taste like Vegemite.. Trust me, its true. Im talking Original Vegemite, not this 2.0 crap
6:09 PM Sep 28th from web

About to see 500 days of summer. Is it bad that I didn't know what movie we were seeing til I looked at the ticket just then?
2:40 PM Sep 19th from Tweetie

Apparently people in Gosford don't eat on Sundays. Every single place that MIGHT sell food is closed....Was at Gosford for my brothers Grand final. He totally won
3:52 PM Sep 13th from Tweetie

I just found out that my brothers hair feels like wet dog hair. For real.Im glad i got the good hair in my family
9:09 PM Sep 12th from Tweetie

My train announcer sounds like he should be an amusement park ride announcer. A bit too early for that, but good try nonetheless.
9:36 AM Sep 7th from Tweetie

Do Australians really REALLY sound South African on US tv shows? REALLY?!?! I can't handle it...Really? Can someone confirm or disprove this for me please?
10:57 PM Sep 1st from web

I can NEVER go on holidays again, cos i think that people get smarter while im on holidays & get bitterly disappointed cos they didn't.
12:06 PM Aug 31st from web

One day I wanna just press any random button on the ticket machince and visit there. Just to see.Still haven't done this. One Day.
9:45 AM Aug 31st from Tweetie

Hello my bed. How I have missed you...
2:25 AM Aug 29th from Tweetie

I can't believe how many people walk around in socks and bare feet in a bus terminal... Even into the bathrooms....
4:41 PM Aug 28th from Tweetie

So apparently cause I went to bed SO early yesterday, it means God is punishing me with no sleep tonight... Awesome!!
2:22 AM Aug 18th from Tweetie

I have broken my brain. It's not gonna work again... At least, not 4 2nite... Have 2 wait & see if it likes me enough 2 come back tomorrow.
6:57 PM Aug 11th from Tweetie

To Me, stop grinding your teeth. I & U would really appreciate it. Thanks. Yourself.I write letters like this often.
2:12 PM Aug 11th from Tweetie

I have had a yawn stuck in my throat all day... I hate half yawns...
4:45 PM Aug 4th from web

Sick of people saying, U can't get Chicken Pox twice... Apparently, you CAN, cause i DID!! Its great that U care, but U are wrong.
I totally had chicken pox then.
3:54 PM Aug 3rd from web

I just woke up and my stomach hates me.
11:04 AM Jul 13th from Tweetie

I hate the weirdest dream. My nails were failling out and my dad was acting like spoiled lttle kid no matter what happened.
3:56 AM Jul 10th from Tweetie

If U dropped a coin in the bathroom stall and it bounced into someones stall would it be wrong to get it quickly?Was a little bit tippsy when i did this one, and i was at the casino.
10:25 PM Jul 4th from Tweetie

How bad is it that i dont wash with soap my mug that i use for milo? I put a LOT of boiling water in it, & thats it... It wont kill me right
5:40 PM Jul 1st from web

Oh gosh, my buildings fire alarm went off JUST as I got out of the shower...Guess i'm gonna burn, cause I ain't going out there half dressed
9:22 AM Jul 1st from Tweetie

Why does the radio only play 'Manic Monday' on not monday? I like the song, but it kinda is just a MONDAY song....
12:49 PM Jun 30th from web

Why, on a Sunday night, do I never remember that I NEED 8 hours sleep 2 function on Monday? Never ever do I remember. Some1 start reminding!
1:54 AM Jun 15th from Tweetie

WHY WOULD ANYONE CHANGE VEGEMITE...????? Sure, its gross, but people expect the grossness!!
6:20 PM Jun 14th from web

I think that my legs have really really stopped working... I can still feel them, i just can't move them. I know that they will not hold me.
3:09 PM Jun 13th from web

Some days I wish I worked at a family company where I could sleep all day and not get fired. Is that so wrong? Just SOME days...Lets be honest, MOST days.
2:56 PM Jun 11th from Tweetie

Cooked and cleaned the kitchen. I feel like a proper wife. When do i get to be a stay at home one?
11:04 PM Jun 9th from web

Oh my gosh, I just read that full house might be made into a movie!!! Exciting but kinda not as well...Can not remember where i read this, but i am still a little excited about it.
4:02 PM Jun 8th from Tweetie

Samson now jumps when you put UR finger near the tank... Sometimes. But not when Sheldon is around...Cause Samson didn't like Sheldon. But Samson died now. PS.Samson was a fish
4:23 PM Jun 4th from Tweetie

I wonder what babies are thinking when they aren't sleeping and eating but just sitting and staring... Can someone enlighten me please?Well?
4:19 PM May 24th from Tweetie

When do you stop being a 'newlywed'? Just curious, not thinking I'm a newlywed.
10:53 PM May 19th from Tweetie

I want to have steaks, chips and eggs for tea... But someone won't go get the steaks or eggs....
8:51 PM May 17th from web

I have gotten the hiccups every day without fail for like 2 weeks.... That's gotta be something bad, right?
2:28 PM May 13th from Tweetie

I do not like how 'holiday skin body lotion' smells. Not at all... Also, I dislike the word lotion too...
9:19 AM May 6th from Tweetie

So I have a question 4 U all. If ppl could get bird flu & swine flu, why did no 1 get equine flu? All these animal illnesses are confusing!
1:43 PM May 2nd from Tweetie

Why is it, no matter how awake I was already, whenever I have a blanket on the couch I get sleepy & all yawn-y??
12:10 AM May 2nd from Tweetie

I just passed a female in 3 inch heels, (a total guess, but not the point) walking with a CANE!! WTF? Really, really, WTF?
8:09 PM May 1st from web

I have come to a conclusion. Im bored, & when i get bored, i get lazy. So its UR fault & not mine when i get to a lazy stage. Entertain me!
4:42 PM Apr 13th from web

I wish i could slap every person who does not cover their mouth when they cough. Yes, i am in a mood, but it will be worse if i get sick.Its just politeness really.
1:29 PM Apr 13th from web

I was told that me putting on red nailpolish while at work was 'appropriate'. Is this someones way of calling me a whore?
7:40 PM Apr 10th from Tweetie

If trading on Good Friday is blasphemy, then is working on GF blasphemy? U get paid 2 work, so technically UR trading? Its not my fault God!
4:51 PM Apr 10th from web

I think Samson is stupid. I thought he was better, so gave him some food. Again, with the floating.... He needs 2 stop eating AIR already!!
4:17 PM Apr 10th from web

What day do U wish ppl 'happy Easter'. The day He died, or the He rose?? Cos both are good days... Curious..Still dont know.
9:54 AM Apr 10th from Tweetie

People talking on the phone in the bathroom is just gross. Even worse when they put the call on speaker.. Eww.I can not handle this.
12:52 PM Apr 7th from Tweetie

For those of you who dont twitter, notice i didn't write once about going to the bathroom,(well, not really) or my bowel movements, or any of that other crap that people who dont twitter think twitterers do.

It really bugs me that people who dont use something ASSUME such stupid things about something that is not!
So in conclusion, if you are not tweeting, (or is it twittering?) go do it now.

Monday, December 7, 2009


I have an interview today.
Im pretty calm about it.
I thought I would be more nervous.
I was going to prepare for it on the weekend, but ran out of time.
Spent too much time watching "How I met your Mother'.
I didn’t dress up a lot, but the other guy going for it, (who is an idiot, cause he isn’t me), just walked in and he is dressed up. Dammit.
Im kinda OCD about how I set up my computer and what needs to be open where.
Don’t even get me started on if a program freezes and gets out of order.
Or if I have to restart one program.
Don’t judge me.
Anyway, the reason I bought up the OCD business is a sad one.
We have a new websense system at work.
I don’t know if I have spoken about this before.
It sucks and is crappy.
It used to block sites like Facebook, (but who cares, cause I have it on my phone, right?), and I don’t know what else, cause I had other sites that were not blocked.
I had my Twitter, and my blogs and sadly, Perez.
And because I spent most of my day with no work to do, this made me day go by.
Especially on Mondays.
I could relive everyone’s weekend.
Now, I have no Twitter.
Now, I have no Blogs.
Now, I have hours and hours to fill with nothingness.
And I can’t even request that they unblock them, cause they aren’t work related and they assume that everyone works all of the day.
Cry a lot.
Tantrum, even.
I do have Twitter on my phone, but its just not the same.
And I can read blogs on my phone, but its so hard. And uses my data.
I already yelled at someone who didn’t get that I NEED these things.
Also, I am posting this from my phone, so usually there would be links and fun-ness, but nope, my stupid work is punishing you too.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Sympathy or frustration?

I have a guy at my work who annoys me.
He annoys me a lot.
He also sits next to me, so that makes the annoyance even worse.

He is one of those people who will only work 9-5 (or whatever his shift is), and do the minimum amount of work that is needed to show that he actually worked.
Now, I'm not saying he should be off working overtime and through his lunch break and junk, but more then the minimum is all.

So that annoys me. Part one.

He also is one of those people who can't just sit and do what he has to do. If he is bored (even though there is work to do), then he needs to talk to someone. Or be in on a conversation that is happening. Or just be annoying.
OR, and this is the worse, (cause with the sitting next to him, he bugs me first) is looking over to what i am doing, and just randomly talks to me.

'DISCLAIMER: I don't enjoy him. Never have. Have even told him to change his nickname cause it annoys me. He didn't get that i was serious. I give him no more then one or two word answers and they are sternly worded. He still doesn't get it. 'END DISCLAIMER.

So that super annoys me. Part two.

But then i was watching him today. (Totally NOT in a stalker way)

And i think he may be doing this, cause he is lonely. Maybe.
I don't know. But maybe.

I don't know now, whether to feel Sympathy or Annoyance towards him.
He still super annoys me, but....

Ps. On a different note, even though i almost hate her, I'm really enjoying Bad Romance by GAGA.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Stuff that happened.

Today is my two year wedding anniversary.
We're having pizza for tea and then watching Dexter and that's it.
Last year, we had KFC. (and i don't think Dexter was involved).
We're low key like that.

I like it.

Maybe if our anniversary fell on a weekend and not a day we both had to work, we would do something but meh, either way, I'm happy enough.

Yesterday was my works first Christmas party.
Well, really it was the social clubs party, but same thing in my mind.
It was a cruise and it was quite fun.
My feet and legs were hating on my today though.
And my head was not nice to me either.
And i would like a LOT more sleep.
But it was worth it.

I'm a little bit more excited about the next Christmas party though.

That's all i have for now, cause I'm waiting on my pizza and am getting cross.

Sunday, November 29, 2009


Spent a day with the God kidlets.

Fun was had by all.

PS. Although the God parental ness was given to me, I would love them nonetheless.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Mash up dos

Why do people lie?
I'm not saying this, cause I'm all truth telling, i lie too.
But i curious as to why?

We say all sorts of things, that are 'white lies', but in the end, won't it hurt the person more then if you told the truth right away?

We claim, that we are sparing their feelings when we say they look good in that outfit, that we loved their Christmas/birthday gift, that we will be friends forever, but then we don't or aren't.

But really, we aren't.
We are just making it easier on ourselves cause we don't have to explain.

So can someone tell me?


Why we squash a bug, we don't care.
But like if a person died, do you think the bugs family (if you can call it that) mourns? Like ants, there are about a billion of them, do they notice when an ant gets squashed and doesn't come back to the nest?

What about puppies and kittens? At pet shops and or breeders? Do you think that the other puppies/kittens realise that their brother or sister is gone, or are they just happy there is more room for them? Do you reckon that they are sad?


I cooked dinner for my husband tonight.
He fell asleep halfway through me cooking it.
He is still asleep.
He hasn't eaten any of it yet.
This makes me cross.

Friday, November 20, 2009


I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things. You would see that as soon as you start reading this blog.
Sometimes they contradict, but so what?
That means i can see both sides of the coin of whatever.

Anyway, i have strong opinions about certain things, like child abuse and the law and i really should have continued my stroll into a job in DOCS or welfare or something, but i get lazy, and i was young, and stupid, but anyway.

But then there are things that just make me angry and sad for the world.

THIS is one of them.

Now for those that don't know.

Victor Chang was an AMAZING man.

Wiki says:

Surgical career
In St Vincent's Hospital, he worked with surgeons Dr. Harry Windsor (who had performed Australia's first heart transplant in 1968) and Dr. Mark Shanahan. The advent of anti-rejection drugs in 1980 made heart transplants more feasible, and Chang lobbied politicians and businessmen to raise funds to establish a heart transplant program at St. Vincent's. The first transplant under the program was performed on the 14-year old Fiona Coote on 24 February 1984.

Between 1984 and 1990 Dr. Chang's unit performed over 197 heart transplants and 14 heart-lung transplants. The unit had a high rate of success with 90% of those receiving transplants from the unit surviving beyond the first year. In 1986, Victor Chang was appointed a Companion of the Order of Australia (AC) "In recognition of service to international relations between Australia and China and to medical science".

Concerned about a shortage of organ donors, he arranged financing and assembled a team of scientists and engineers from around the world to develop an artificial heart. That team, working in Singapore, Guangzhou and Sydney, also developed mechanical and tissue heart valves called the St. Vincent's Heart Valves, which were widely implanted throughout Asia. Dr. Chang and his team also made significant progress on the design of an artificial heart. His research projects ended with his death.


Life-size bronze statue of Chang outside the Victor Chang Cardiac Research Institute. On 15 February 1994, the Victor Chang Cardiac Research Institute, a body intended to focus on researching "the prevention, diagnosis and treatment of heart muscle diseases", was launched by Prime Minister Paul Keating with Kerry Packer as its patron. The "Dr Victor Chang Science Labs" in Christian Brothers' High School are named after him. In 1999, Prime Minister John Howard announced Chang as Australian of the Century at the People's Choice Awards.

In St Vincent's Hospital, the Victor Chang Lowy Packer Building was established in 2008 with AU$35 million from the state government and $45 million in corporate and private donations. Mary, Crown Princess of Denmark officially opened the building and declared that Chang "was an original thinker and saw the need for research and the development of heart assist devices and, not least, he is known for his legendary caring for his patients and their families". In Time magazine's "A Golden Anniversary" article, which lists people who have shaped the last "50 Years In the South Pacific" (1959–2009), Chang was listed as the figure of 1979–1989.

There is no denying the awesome work that he did and that he made able to continue. And I'm not saying that in the slightest.

What i am saying, is why does the law for EVERYONE get to be changed for him?

What about the other murderers who were let out on the earliest parole date and there was no public outcry about their victims?
Are the others victims lesser people?
What about their families? (the victims, not the killers)
AND why when the decision was already made, and this murderer's family were probably told and aware, then baboom, nope, retracted.
Where was this outcry when the parole hearing came up?
Will the same outcry happen next year when he will be up against the board again? Or will people have forgotten by then again?
Will this outcry happen when his sentence is completed? What will happen then? The law won't be able to do anything then.

I understand that the law is not followed by everyone, just look at the recent Hollywood starlets for any examples, but this person served his time.
At least the time that judge/jury thought was enough for him to be punished. (don't even get me started on the crap sentences that we give out nowadays).

I, in no way, think this person deserved to be let out AT ALL, for killing another human being, this person should be sent to an island with all the other murders to live away from normal people for the rest of their lives. I just hate that the law changes for some people, and i think its unfair for this person, cause again, he is a person.
These type of situations make me think we should still have the death penalty, but then what about the innocent people who are on death row? So I'm in two minds again.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Bad day. Bad, bad day.

So far:

~ I woke up early, so i could leave early, but i was dilly dallying so i ended up leaving at the same time as usual.

~ I realised that i needed to pick up something from the post office, but forgot the slip thing. (I think they would have been my cute new cowboy boots for the Christmas party, and that would have made me happy.)

~ I use a ticket machine that says 'EXACT FARE ONLY'.
I had the exact fare.
I put in the exact fare.
The stupid machine ate my money.
I was buying a weekly ticket.
$27 down the drain.
I went to the people working.
First one blamed it on me, (the machine now said, 'NO NOTES' cause it ate mine).
I went to the manager. She did nothing except say 'I want to help you only didn't.
Had to buy another ticket. Total cost $54. ANGER.

~ Missed my train cause of the hoopla that just happened.

~ Tried to listen to calming music on the train, (all the good stuff, Linkin Park, Rage, etc), but only one of my earphones would work.

~ Bought toast from the place i go to EVERY DAY.
They burnt it.
I saw the girl go to put it in the bin, but then didn't.
She then scraped off the BLACK and gave it to me.


And now i have to deal with the stupid people who call me all day. (That's my job).
Its gonna be a LONG day.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Amazing SuperHuman.

Kurt Fearnley

Now i don't know if you all know the Kokoda Track but to walk it is a HUGE thing where i am from.

Its 96Kms (approx 60 miles) over land, and that alone would put me off.

Wiki says:
The Kokoda Track or Trail is a single-file foot thoroughfare that runs 96 kilometres (60 mi) overland — 60 kilometres (37 mi) in a straight line — through the Owen Stanley Range in Papua New Guinea. The track is the most famous in Papua New Guinea and is renowned as the location of the World War II battle between Japanese and Australian forces in 1942.

The track starts, or ends, at Owers Corner in Central Province, 50 kilometres (31 mi) east of Port Moresby, and then crosses rugged and isolated, terrain, which is only passable on foot, to the village of Kokoda in Oro Province. It reaches a height of 2,190 metres (7,185 ft) as it passes around the peak of Mount Bellamy.[1]

Hot, humid days with intensely cold nights, torrential rainfall and the risk of endemic tropical diseases such as malaria make it a challenge to walk. Despite the challenge posed it is a popular hike that takes between four and twelve days (depending on fitness). Locals have been known to hike the route in three days.

Now, there has been deaths. Many deaths, (i mean after the war), when fit able bodied people have attempted to walk the Track.

Since 2001 there has been a rapid increase in the number of people walking the track. Six Australian trekkers have died from natural causes while attempting to walk the track. Four of those deaths have occurred in 2009, with two in the same week in April and another two 8 days apart in September and October. The deaths have sparked calls for mandatory fitness tests for all walkers before starting.

As popularity for walking the track has increased there have been calls for more regulation of trek operators with some operators taking as many as 150 walkers in a group. In response the Kokoda Track Authority has announced that from the beginning of 2010 tour operators must have a commercial licence which will "address things such as training requirements, first aid details, insurance and conditions for the porters".

But then you have people like Kurt.
Kurt was born without the lower part of his spine.
He just finished walking (crawling) the Kokoda Track.

He had people with him. But he mostly did it on his own.

He says:

Says Fearnley: "For me, a lot of my job is to race for Australia, but you need to pause and think what it is that makes us who we are. Australia has such a tie with Kokoda.

"The history of the guys who fought there has always intrigued me. It is also a chance for me and my family and friends (12 are travelling with him, and adventure company Kokoda Spirit is involved) to get together to experience something unique and challenging and positive. Kokoda is all about mateship and looking out for each other. Everyone says to me: 'You're mad, what are you thinking?"'

Fearnley puts it into perspective. During World War II, "people were crawling down there with legs missing, with limbs missing, with bullets shooting at them, with dysentery, with malaria, with an army on their heels - so whatever happens to us, no matter how tough we seem to be having it, people have had it far worse".


For more info check out here

Ps. From 2001 to 2008, he raced in 32 marathons, winning 22 and finishing in a place on the other occasions, including three straight wins in the New York marathon. He has pushed his body to the finishing line in a chair with busted wheels and broken frames.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009


I got a call yesterday.
It was a blocked number and I have had issues in the past about them, so I didn't answer.
They left a vmail.
I don't usually listen to them either, cause why not just MSG me?
But I did.
It was for a job.
A new job with a new company.
A job I applied for so long ago, that I don't even remember what it was about.

Can anyone tell me what a 'client services' person do?
When I googled it, it was all craziness that I would not have applied to do....

Anyway, it made me think really hard.
About what I want.
About what I need.
Spoke to the husband, and decided I would call them back.
So I called.
Got the damn voicemail.
But I left a msg.
It was scary.
I don't like change and this would be starting all over again.
Waiting on a call back.
Don't think it's likely in this GFC, job craziness that I'll get a call back AGAIN.
But we'll see.
Still think I'm gonna apply for the role here too though.
Just to see.
I don't have my heart set on it and I think if I don't get it, it'll be OK.
Cause even if I don't get a call back from this new company lady, I know there are other options.
And that's good for now.

I think that God or Buddha or Mohammad, or fate saw me freaking out and wanted me to not anymore.
I think I'm OK with that.

This post helped me too. (except not the baseball part).

Friday, November 13, 2009

What do i want?

What do i want?

A job ad came out today.

The job that she had.

A job that i want.

But i don't want her job. I want to work with her.

I don't know if after seeing what she went through, whether i could even do it. I probably could do the work, but the stress and the everything that came with it, i don't know if i could handle it as much as she did.

It is a job that i would like to do.

The negatives are always on my mind though.

I don't like the remaining people in that team. I don't know if i could work with them.
It would be more ME then US, but there would still be an US.

I wasn't good enough last time i tried to be a part of that team, and it nearly killed me.
I don't know if i could even think about going through that again.

In my mind, it seems like I'm trying to be her. I don't know if people think that, but we were similar, and now, if i got it, i would just be slotted in.

It seems lonely. In my role currently, i have frustrations, but i also have people who i can rant to, and they get it. There i would be alone.

But then there are positives.

I would have some control over what people know.
In my current role, i don't have that, and it is the most frustrating thing.

I would be in a better job. A job that is easier to explain when people ask, and a generally better job.

I would not be where i am.
I would be able to start and finish work when i needed to. No more sitting around with no work for 3 hours just cause i had to be here.
I would not just be wasting away my knowledge while I'm stuck in a job i have had for 4 years.


But i don't know what i want.

Do i really really want this?
I wanted it before, but is it what i want now?

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Remembrance Day

It was Remembrance Day today.

It makes me sad.

Sad but proud.
So proud.

The same feeling as ANZAC Day.

I never really got when i was at school. I mean, we had the minute silence and did all that when i was at school, but back then it was just a half a day off school, and i didn't really get it.

But on the last few years, i have gotten it.

I saw a man last ANZAC day on the train. An older man, with medals. A lot of medals. And i felt pride. Proud of him and his bravery and dedication to the place that i live.

I know that i could never in a million years be brave enough to do that.
In an manner.
Whether there was a war or not.

I would love to be able to say, 'I'm a soldier' or something like that.
But I'm not brave.

I know that i will probably never be brave enough.

Thank God for them.

They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old;
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning
We will remember them.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Motivatied - Smotivatied

I have a problem.

I have diagnosed it as Half motivation-itis. (cause all illness need the itis business, right?).

In real people terms it means that i have the hope to do a lot of things, but i will more then likely get halfway through them, and lose motivation and then it will never be finished. I will be very surprised if this post gets posted today, (9/11 - added the date for the pressure), and not sit for days and days when i lose motivation.

Now, this isn't always the case, just with things that are 'due'. I was able to do assignments at school completely and get them in on time (most of the time anyway), i was able to finish tests within the allocated time limit.
At work, if i am told something needs to be done, by close of business, end of the week, end of the month, it is, or is done earlier.

I work super well with pressure.
I think my work is better, too.

But take that pressure away and hello to half motivation-itis.

Here are some examples:

~ I had every intention of cleaning my whole house yesterday. Like vacuum, really spring clean, the bathroom, EVERYTHING. I got to the point of being ready to vacuum and had enough. My house is clean, just not CLEAN..
No pressure, so meh.
Now if someone was going to be coming over and seeing my house, the vacuum and everything would have been done.

~ One of the things that i have to do as part of my job has a turnaround time of 48 hours. Which means it should get done within 48 hours of getting it in. 48 hours means that there is always tomorrow. Always.
I will do ANYTHING else other then get that work done.

Another thing that is a symptom of half motivation-itis is the lose of motivation when there is a small amount of work to be done.

If i have 3 things to do, as opposed to 30 things, i wont do the 3 things.
Cause of my job, i have to be here whether i have work or not, so i wont do them, because then i will know that i will have nothing to do, as opposed to knowing that there is work to be done, that I'm just not doing.

Makes sense, right?

So, its totally a real illness and i should be a doctor and wear a white coat and then people wont question me when im doing nothing but wandering.

Ps. i think that Spike is getting the same sickness as what killed Samson. That makes me VERY sad, but it could also be that the tank needs to be cleaned. Tomorrow.

Sunday, November 8, 2009


Went to Sculpture by the Sea yesterday.


You need to go to see it if you can.

Also, yesterday they had Bumblebee there, so the husband was happy about that too...

Got really really sunburnt though.

Now, for the photos.

Ps. I really really do not like the way the photos are all gobbledygook, instead of the actual pictures when you upload them.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Sick again...

So i usually never get sick.
I say usually, cause this year has sucked as far as sickness.

I have had the flu at least 3 times. I had the chicken pox (for the second time), and now, i have laryngitis.

I hate being sick.

I hate having to use my 100's of sick hours when I'm actually sick.


Also, i got meds that say i have to take after eating, but i don't really do breakfast, so if i take it without eating, i wont die, right?

Monday, November 2, 2009

Sad day.

I am sad today.

An awesome, amazing, passionate person quit at my work today.

She was someone who pushed you cause she knew that you could do it, no matter how much you didn't think you could.

I was sick today.
I missed her last day.
This makes me sadder.

People didn't always agree with her, or the way she did things, but she was fighting a good fight. She was fighting for the customers and wanted to make things as easy as possible for EVERYONE. Even if it made it hard for her.

People didn't always understand that.

I am sad.

She made me want to work harder, because she encouraged. She acknowledged. She actually gave a shit.

Not many people at my work are like that.

That also makes me sad.

I can't even put into words my feelings, cause it feels like just blah.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

I know God was all no Idols other then me, but....

I love this guy.

I found him through twitter, when one of the Madden brothers (i don't remember which, and they look the same so it doesn't make that much of a difference, right?) demanded he be followed, so like a good little lemming, i thought, why not? But i have to say, thanks Maddens.

Shane is smart, and angry and passionate and makes me think. He also sometimes makes me feel guilty but in the good, i need to be less selfish and help the world kinda way.

He is a part of the celebrity world, (He was totally in Survivor: Panama, so that makes people a celebrity, right?) but seems separate enough not to be fucked by it all.

He can totally put celebs in their place, and then on the other hand, bring the good ones out of the woodwork.

He seems like an amazing dad too, and I'm sure his son will be an great guy.

I think my most favorite thing though, is that he calls people mama and poppa. I don't know what it is, but i think that is awesome.

I think you all should check out his blog right now please.

And if that doesn't do it to you, watch this:

PS. This video is his submission video to Survivor, which is also pretty funny. Watch that too.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Friday on my mind.

I'm really really really really really really really really really really really
really really really really really really really really really really really really really
excited for Friday.

We are having a Halloween day at work.
Now, I'm not a Halloween person by any means.

But I'm super excited about it.

We in Oz, don't usually celebrate Halloween, cause instead of it being the end of summer, its the opposite.
So anyway, I'm really excited.
I am going to dress up, and I LOVE doing that.
I LOVE our Christmas parties for that exact reason as well.
I will be sure to put some photos up when the day is done.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Fuck, I hate secret blog stalkers.

If you read and are paranoid enough to think its all about you, and want to question it, ask ME. Don't ask someone else to ask me about it.

Oh and Yes, this time, it IS about you.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Music I heart.

So i have this thing on my phone that if i hear a song, it can tell me the name of the song, and the singer.

I listen to music all day at work, and USUALLY its kinda crappy music. But occasionally something awesome comes on, and i just need to know what it is.

Then i try and make my husband buy it for me to listen to. That part doesn't always work though.

I thought i would share my awesome music taste with everyone.

So enjoy!!

Bad Things ~ Jace Everitt

Not only is this song awesome, but it starts at the beginning of an AMAZING show*.

The Times They Are A Changin' ~ Bob Dylan

I tried to find the clip that was played at the beginning of WatchMen, but they were all not embedded.

Here It Goes Again ~ Ok Go

Song is pretty good too.

Lola-The Kinks

*Top Of The Pops-70s*

I love that this clip was filmed before i was born.
When i first heard The Kinks, i thought they were a new band with an old sound, but then i found out who they were and were glad.

So Human ~ Lady Sovereign

I'm not a dancer, but this sound
just makes me move.
Although, i usually just do it in my head.

Rain On Your Parade ~ Duffy
(Live from Webster Hall in NYC)

I love her voice. Although i do think
she looks like she got smacked in the mouth.

"Carry On Wayward Son" ~ Kansas

I admit. My love for this song started from

Tiny Dancer ~ Elton John
Almost Famous

I had to use this video. Just HAD to.

Points Of Authority/99 Problems/One Step Closer ~ Linkin Park & Jay-Z

I love 99 problems, but I LOVE the two as one.

Fight For Your Right to Party ~ Beastie Boys

Who doesn't love some good old Beastie Boys?

Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyes

I know that The Who sang the original,
but i like this one.

There was gonna be 12 songs here, but Regina Spektor is not being friendly, so here is the link to her song that i like.
It really is quite good too.